Erotic hypnosis: hypnotoy Panty Slave jnl 16.

The following emails were from an exchange with My toy…. hypnotoy/gs after I posted journal 15 of his journey last night. In journal 15 I recalled one of My favourite memories …. when he became so entrapped in one of My seductive trances- that ….. well…. you can read the link. Suffice to say- “panties”.

Over these last few years, hypnotoy has had periods of time away from hypnosis due to medical treatment. The last time W/we had a conversation via email, he was listening to one of My orgasm control files.

Today, I reminded him of the “panties” experience ( see link below)….

Notice- how toy then went & put panties on…. purple panties….

Well- of course- that wasn’t hypnosis -right?

Because I didn’t use an induction…. and there was no suggestion…. right?

Or was there??

The delights of toying with My toy…..

My pleasure. Inscribing My fetishes on your mind and body…. as I did in the Surrender: Feminisation file. Taking My fetishes…. what turns Me on…. and inscribing those erotic fetishes on your oh so compliant and complicit mind.

mmm…. that’s what I love doing.

Go- buy the Surrender: feminisation file….. listen…. knowing that recording is based on R/L training of a slave.

Darkly Addictive Hypnosis….

Become Addicted to My exquisite control…. as My whispers slip…slide… their way into your eager mind.

Lady S:

I am not sure how much hypnosis you are listening to  ….
so I thought it safe to say “who I continue to love hypnotising…” as I know you were listening to an orgasm control file a few months back.
Not sure if you are still listening…
yes- I do continue to love hypnotising you.
Whenever…. whatever that means….. whether you are having a break from hypnosis…. or whether you are reading My web site and observing the new boys & girls become enticed….
My pleasure.
Inscribing My fetishes, My pleasure on your mind, toy.
Lady S.

Mmmm thank You,

i think it is safe to think of me as always watching…. and sometimes in panties
Lady S:
Now – who is teasing who?!
I’m going to post that…either twitter or web site later.
Just back from rehab/massage appts.
I still laugh when I think of the amazon panties….
And what colour panties today?
Have stockings remained on your fetish list?
Lady S.

Purple and yes….

Very much so…
Keep well. G’night
 Lady S:
night night.
sleep well.
Lady S
Also… Feel free to tease if it pleases you… I enjoyed it. (and wasn’t wearing panties before)

Surrender : Cock Slave Entrapment

Entrapped in delicious hypnotic chastity!

Entrapped in delicious hypnotic chastity!

you are here today, to be interviewed for the position of My cock slave.

It appears you have a troublesome cock that gets hard without My permission. you are an undisciplined boy who longs to have his orgasms & cock controlled by a powerful Goddess. you crave My entrapment – locked into hypnotic chastity.


Surrender: Feminization

I will program your mind to crave being feminized.

You in sexy Baby Doll Lingerie! 

I will program your mind to crave being feminized. You will love it when I finally dress you in my baby doll nightie, my slave.

You will be so aroused by my cool seductive hands as I dress you. Craving my exquisite control as I whisper to you – silken whispers to seduce your cock.


Erotic Hypnosis: beginning of hypnotoy/gs journey to Surrender jnl 15

Kneel… Surrender to your Goddess….
There are subjects who remain part of My life for some years…. and subjects who hold a special place in My mind and heart…. I remember them for their unique responses to My recordings and for the interactions over a period of time. “hypnotoy/gs” is one such submissive who is still in contact …. and who I continue to love hypnotising.
Some of you who followed Me on twitter over the years & also followed Me on the old IR will remember “hypnotoy/gs”…. W/we had many conversations on twitter and there are a number of Reviews & journals he wrote as a result of serving Me….
Some of My favourite hypnotoy responses to My hypnosis …  one memorable weekend when hypnotoy’s girlfriend…..  hypnotoy’s journal about that weekend brings a whole new meaning to the phrase “the girlfriend experience”.
And…. why did Amazon order a pair of panties to be delivered to his house?……. mmm…. blank toy….
Of course- the times when W/we have “chatted” on skype …smiles…. when I triggered him…. I do loving toying with My hypnotoy. There’s nothing quite like the Live Hypnosis experience …when I am able to judge the strength of a hypnotic trigger… drop a toy into trance…. strengthen the trigger….. add a few suggestions….. bring toy back up to conscious awareness…..
hypnotoy’s first email is one that I never published on My web site. his discovery of My hypnosis recordings changed his world and changed his beliefs about erotic hypnosis.
Up until he heard My voice…. he thought erotic hypnosis didn’t really work… didn’t last….just as  you may have thought,  My sweet reader…  until you hear My voice.
From such an email, a journey begins…
Wanting to experience what hypnotoy experiences?
Listen to My free Surrender foundation file….. and begin your own journey… deep into My exquisite control.
Personal slave training
Personal sissy training
Live Hypnosis sessions
Erotic Hypnosis recordings…..
so many ways in which to Surrender to your Goddess.
more than just a great marketing strategy.
Dearest Lady Surrender.
I had to write to you after listening to the morning mantra series (**Note- the Morning Mantra series has been withdrawn & is to be re-recorded) for a few weeks now and finally purchasing the 4th session last night.
Until last night the effect of hypnosis sessions on me was minimal. A nice buzz when waking at the end, but it soon faded. Occasionally, as in your case, I’d listen to the files a few more times, but generally would move away from them over time.
Last night though I was blown away. Before I realised it I’d been listening for 6 hours and only came around in the end because I desperately needed water. I couldn’t clear my head but couldn’t place way and soon drifted off for the rest of the night.
I’ve woken this morning after a series of amazing dreams. Dreams where I was trying to juggle my normal, everyday existence with the need to submit. I could sense that people were starting to notice that I wasn’t the same and with every command you sent and with every thought of you I became weaker and weaker. I felt a growing need to serve you without resistance, but also felt weak around any woman wearing stocking or heels and needing to please her in tribute to you, which in turn left me weaker and weaker still.
I’ve woken this morning and had to listen to the files again, this time without them being accidentally left on loop.
I’ve always tended towards a submissiveness, but beyond purchasing recorded files from various hypnotists have never felt the need to explore further.
I now feel the confidence to be able to do that and also to seek out ways of serving and furthering my submissiveness and you can’t believe how much I thank you for that. My need to remain some semblance of control had always been too great that even if I constructed clear, defined fantasies I could not look to live them out but now I now that I am on the road to giving up that control, passing away the keys to my mind and hope to enjoy whatever road you are taking us all on.
If it pleased you to develop further plans for me that would be amazing, but it is not something I dare ask you myself. I am enjoying reading the words others have tributed to you and to know the control you have other them is thrilling. I am most enjoying seeing how they lose control and how you are becoming a driving force in their lives, taking them further than they ever hoped.
One final thing, I am starting a new job in a few weeks, moving from a male dominated environment back into an office where I have worked before. While I wasn’t too enthralled with this before, as of this morning I am so eager to get there. I know some of the women who work there, who will be in charge of me, how they look and how they dress. I just know that every time I speak with them, stand near them or receive their emails that the thoughts of submitting to women but most importantly you and will continue my path to submission to you at times when I cannot listen to your words directly.
I’m looking forward to this evening, so that I can trance for you again.
See hypnotoy’s previous journal..
This link will take you through to journal 13…. the girlfriend experience…

Erotic Hypnosis : sissy brainwashing jnl 4

The following email was received from a subject who asked for a Live one on one Erotic Hypnosis session, to experience a sissy orgasm.
When I talked to the subject after the session, it became apparent that sissy slut e had not believed a sissy orgasm, feminine orgasm …was possible.
I took great delight in using the hypnosis triggers I had programmed during the induction and deep trance- to trigger sissy slut e to have repeated orgasms.
Of course…. what happened next was predictable…. so many sissy orgasms that sissy slut e begged me to stop saying the hypnotic trigger phrases.
Such a delicious way to train a subject.
Longing to feel what sissy slut e feels?
you know what to do…..
Purchase a Live One on One Erotic Hypnosis session!
and become My obedient sissy slut.

Lady Surrender,

I just cannot get over it – how could I have had the experience that I did today (which was most amazing!)? Being an engineer, my behavior is to analyze things – and one of my wife’s issues with me is that I seldom give in to the emotional side, always analytical. Giving in to emotion is scary for me, however I think I am finally learning not to fear it. Things are changing now, thanks to my Goddess!
So, since I am still so hyped up and cannot sleep, am doing some research on “men having female orgasms”. Interesting. Found the attached link, very interesting. One of the primary findings is that the female orgasm is 10x stronger than the male orgasm — and some speculate a male could die from a female orgasm!  All about Theta waves – which Goddess surely knows much more about than her lowly sissy slut!
My experience today was very intense – maybe perhaps because a female orgasm is so much stronger? Being an engineer, I am “a positive skeptic” about the male biology of being capable to completely reproducing a female orgasm — although that would be pretty cool with vagina contractions! Actually I think my body mimicked those today, although I am skeptical that they were as good as a woman has. Even so, geez it was astounding!
Interesting observation — at no time during the session did I get an erection (even though I did take a Viagra beforehand). Even afterwards, tried masturbating with my Hitachi and sissy porno – I simply could not get “interested”!
Is this because I was so spent from our session? Or maybe truly the sissy training is starting to take effect? Either way: it is a win – win situation! The neat thing about the programing triggers Goddess bestowed upon me, is the ability to have a female orgasm anywhere, anytime and without porno and lubricants. I pray Goddess does not deem this last sentence vulgar – just facts I wanted to share with my Goddess.
I have to tell my Goddess, right now it would be a tough call if I had to decide on one or the other gender orgasm. Clearly, my female orgasms today were great because: they were multiple, and far more intense than all male orgasms I have had. Right now the only things I would miss about the male orgasm is the stroking on my sissy clitty — however I could do the female orgasm while rubbing my sissy clitty.
Random thoughts, I hope Godess does not mind me sending these to her. Actually I hope that these give my Goddess marketing/promotional materials – this clitty slave passionately wishes to support the business of my Goddess to the best of my abilities.
Tomorrow I will write a report on the session, keeping in mind it is something that Goddess may deem to post.
Now, I am truly going to bed. I hope Goddess’s head cold is much better!
Your most humble sissy slut,
sissy e
See also:

Erotic Hypnosis : sissy brainwashing jnl 2.

The following is an email I received from sissy slave e who recently had her first erotic hypnosis session to experience feminine orgasm.
So delicious… hearing her beg her Goddess to stop triggering her to orgasm…. as I brought her up from hypnotic trance, strengthened the hypnotic triggers and then…. toyed with her.
Repeating the triggers over and over….. as she orgasmed over and over….
I also enjoyed teasing her about her skepticism that a feminine orgasm was possible.
On this website you will be able to search/read journals written by subjects who have experienced My unique style of hypnosis…. and who have experienced that ultimate feminine experience of a feminine orgasm.
Would-be sissy sluts should compose emails of supplication, addressed to Myself…. begging for a Live Hypnosis session to experience sissy orgasm.
For subjects who don’t have privacy for a Live Hypnosis session, I have created a “Feminine Orgasm” double mp3 set….
Dear Goddess:
I am still getting trembles every few minutes from our session which ended about 30 minutes ago. Today marks a “most memorable” day in my life.
Exquisite seduction – I not only walked into Your web of seduction and caring control/domination — I ran into Your web as fast as I could. My only regret that I did not do this years ago. You, my Goddess, have changed my life!
I admit (maybe you should punish me for this *:"> blushing) whilst I have been listening to your audios with great enthusiasm, I had my doubts on the female orgasm live session in terms of would it really happen, and what the intensity would be. I guess You could say I was a positive skeptic who wanted, in the worst way, for it to be true.
I will write more about this experience, maybe you will deem it fit to share with others. Right now, however — I am going to bed, I am deliciously exhausted from obeying Your commands!!
Your deeply addicted and grateful slave!!
slave e
See also sissy slave e’s request for a Live Hypnosis session:

Erotic Hypnosis – sissy ashley Jnl 13

The courage to be you.
The following email is from a sissy subject who has recently taken the step to talk to a close friend about their sissy self and their desire to be feminine. sissy ashley has had Live Hypnosis One-On-One sessions as well as Custom recordings.
It’s time to experience your feminine self… in a similar way to ashley’s journey.
So many delicious hypnosis recordings to choose from….
One of My favourite files is the double file set of Feminine Orgasm :
I have also loved the delicious sounds of pleasure that subjects make in Live Hyposis Sessions when I hypnotise them to experience a feminine orgasm.
Lady Surrender,
Recently, I’ve experienced two breakthroughs: one surprising to myself, and the other a conscious choice. Did years of sissy hypnosis alone carry me here? No, but it may have been the voice to lead me where I am now, especially after I found Your files and underwent a few live sessions. Time is a major factor as well. A constant that pulls us forward, and if we allow it, closer to being our true selves, unconcerned with how the world perceives us.
I’ve always had a feminine side, but never really understood it. Do little boys or even teenage boys, who feel an acute awareness to femininity–softness, beauty, sophistication, and naturalness–know what those desires are? If they’re like me, probably not, and like hearing a language you don’t understand, hearing the feminine self as a socially conditioned male creates swings of confusion, bliss, guilt, and joy.
Dear goodness, I remember the sheer elation I felt the first time I put on a bra at the age of 12, but swung so severely to shame about what I had done that I repressed my feminine self until I was in my mid 20s. Then I explored through cycles of binge and purge all forms of pretty lingerie and cute outfits. Those cycles were expensive in the form of money and also mental and emotional energy.
I discovered sissy hypno in my early 30s and began to read about crossdressers, transvesites, and transgender individuals. Slowly, my feminine psyche formed, identifying and empathizing with those who expressed their feminine selves. With Your files, Ashley took shape in my mind, and any feminine desires I had were channeled to her. She was free to appreciate those cute peep toe heels and flirty a line dresses. She could enjoy the comfort of a freshly opened tube of lip gloss. Breasts could bud, and a feminine orgasm could electrify. But she had to stay hidden.
Until a few weeks ago.
It’s not like I woke up that day deciding I was going to tell a very close friend that I have these feminine desires. But I did.
A young woman in a super fun and spring-like a line dress walked into the bar, where I was enjoying a spontaneous happy hour with a friend. I commented how much I liked the dress, and my friend enthusiastically agreed. Using “growing older” as a topic and referencing how we gain confidence as we grow older, I haltingly told my friend how I like to wear feminine clothes and have an affinity for feminine things.
And she accepted me.
And we proceeded to have a super fun conversation about outfits, dresses, styles, makeup, how I could dress up, my history of dressing and how I compensate to feel fulfilled. It was joyous! Freeing! Future shopping trips are in the works!
I’ve since told a second friend, and I made an appointment to visit a therapist who specializes in gender identity. I’ve already had one appointment, where we discussed my situation and set some goals for future sessions.
So that’s where I’m at. I still aim to tell my friends and therapist about Ashley. It’ll be part of the process to which I’m excited to see what comes.
About damn time.
Check the Journal categories for the earlier Journal Entries written by ashley.

Erotic Hypnosis : training sam to be cam slut

The following email was received from a subject who has been deeply conditioned by My “Deepening Hypnosis” mp3. This conditioning file has been used by a Master as the basis for  mind fucking the subject –  turning the subject into a cam slut.

Craving to experience what sam does? My “Deepening Hypnosis” mp3 takes you deep into trance…. enabling your mind to be programmed to become My play toy. Check out My training programmes on the menu bar…. time to Surrender because Surrender is inevitable.

Hello Mistress, I hope you are well.
I’ve been without an erotic hypnosis experience now for a while. Ive been working abroad and haven’t had a lot of spare time and on one of my typical purge cycles.
I was masturbating yesterday and had the strongest urge to eat my cum. And I remembered how good it felt to be a good cum eating sissy…. so i listened to your cum eating files and I ate my cum like a good cum eating sissy…
For a while last year as I told you in a journal I was listening to your files a lot and out of my desperation to submit I had found a few people online who enjoyed watching me eat my cum and instructing me while I was willing and suggestible.
One master in particular really used your triggers to hypnotize me. I loved listening to deepening hypnosis and then letting him control me.. to the extent of buying toys to fuck my aching arse..
It was incredible.
But now I feel confused. From the start my interest in hypnosis has always been the thought of being controlled… and I know I am still hetero sexual.. and even though now some aspects of sissy hypno really turn me on im not into cross dressing or feminization I still get these really strong cock sucking urges when im horny.. or wanting to be fucked.. or to be a good cum eating sissy..
If I think about how I was hypnotized and controlled by a man to fuck myself with a dildo and eat my cum I instantly feel submissive and want it… but then im not sure i want a man doing that to me.
Im not sure what I want from hypnosis now but I know I want it.
I’ve gone from having a fetish when I first contacted you to eating my cum and then being a sex toy on skype.
Im not really sure what my point here is exactly but it always makes me feel good telling you how I feel after listening to your files…

  • sam, your cam slut.

My cam slut,

Hypnosis is so seductive…as you have discovered. How fucking delicious- that you were transformed by the power of My hypnosis –  from a “normal” hypno slut….. to a cam slut.

your description of fucking yourself with a dildo & eating your cum, is a sexual fantasy ( & a great turn-on !). Fantasy derives its power from being a secret… something that we imagine & that (often) others don’t know about us…. something we might/might not act out in a hidden part of your life. you have discovered that your fantasies are even more HOT when you have acted them out in the past.

Sexual fantasies don’t define your sexuality… you can identify as a straight man- & also have a fantasy about being controlled & dominated by a man.

That does NOT mean you are gay…. your fantasy simply means you have a fetish for cum eating (thanks to My hypnosis) , a fetish for anal play …and you are turned on by the experience of being controlled.

There is nothing to be ashamed of or to make judgements about. I know you have cycles of binge/purge… Time to accept yourself for the cam slut that you are… and go find yourself another Master. Enjoy those delicious feelings of arousal & submission.

Deepening Hypnosis
Submit yourself deeper and deeper…

See sam’s earlier journals >>

Erotic Hypnosis : delete hetero jnl 1

The following journal is written by bridgette, a subject who was Enticed to listen to My Delete Hetero-Install Sissy Sex mp3.

Entrancement followed…. as I rewired “his” socialization as a “male”.

mmm… now My new found sissy slut is listening to 3 of My files a day….

Shall I call that “Enticement Phase”…. or perhaps the subject has moved straight into “Entrapment” phase.

Unfortunately, the subject seems to be having a little… trouble… with a newly bought chastity device.

dear, dear, dear…. much more- devious- to have My Orgasm Control : Ruined Orgasm mp3 hypnosis embedded…deep into your subconscious mind. What a delicious way to control you… no matter where you live…. My hypnosis controls your orgasm… your cock… your clitty.

June 2016

Lady Surrender,

I like erotic hypnosis. I like the submissive side of things. I wanted my mind controlled and altered. EMCSA has been a very long time go to of mine. From the beginning my kink was with a sub hetero role to a dominant female. They can’t claim they aren’t getting what they want when they’re in control. I especially like the subversion and indirect influence stories. So for years I experimented with hypno doms, paying for some mp3s, cheating access to others. The mind truly is the most important sex organ. I’ve had the recurring thought that it’d be relatively nice to understand what the homosexual side feels and thinks. I wasn’t remotely attracted to Men and thought that Bi-sexuals were having quite the visual feast being attracted to both.

So along comes Mistress Surrender with a file called Delete Hetero-Install Sissy Sex. Hit me like a truck. It’d be one thing if I was always a deluded hetero and was always this flavor of homosexual. It might be the cummulative effect of all the other hypno sessions waiting for that one spark. Or if Mistress Surrender has that one terribly effective method that worked as though I’d been struck by a fork of lightning while standing next to a power transformer.

The selling point was a script that attempted to tackle the concept of gender socialisation. Silly me, its working.

At the minimum, my reflex revulsion to gay erotica is muted. Not even really there. Then I got into the rest of the sissification files and I really was blown away. Just the concept of being a gay sissy slut was kind of hot due to the treat of arousal from a new source. Add in now the tabboo of wearing the costume of the other gender and acting in the submissive role. Hot buttons being added on top of my prior ones, genius!

After a little more help from some PornHub sissy hypno files I found a new non erotic love of pictures of the women I’d lusted for. Goals! Points of immitation and the tactics of simple beauty issues I’d always poo poo’d as frivolity. Makeup isn’t just spackling the wall and throwing on rainbows and sunbursts. This is some real strategy and skill work! I may have been a bit harsh with thinking waiting a half hour for someone to ‘get ready’ was too much. In the extraordinarily unlikely event I was put on television, I wasn’t sure I could deal with makeup. Now I’m pretty sure I’d hog the beauticians time with questions like what my color is. How to experiment with makeup without busting my bank at Sephora. What my eye brow shape should be. None of the ladies I’d oggled before had wire bristle brows. Though they were pretty enough that it might have worked for a short bit until one thought to stare at more than their chest.

If this little adventure goes nowhere due to waking up, chickening out or something like that, it’ll still be worth it. The challenged assumptions and new observation goals at the least will keep me occupied. Observation and memory are like muscles, I’m told. One must flex them to grow them. Now that I’m noticing facial shape, shading or glow. Looking to the hair line or ears to discern just how morphing the effects of makeup can be. Its been like waking up and realizing, I’d been walking around with dulled senses. The ladies have been beautiful. But I’d never appreciated the effort.

But of course, someone called off at one of the worst possible times. Its tough being the White Knight sometimes. But if one isn’t leading by example, they’re just not leading.

Got news of the shooter in Orlando. Very sorry for the loss of so many. Little sad to say that it isn’t affecting me like I’ve heard from so many others. The interview with Lindsey Horvath leads me to conclude that such a thing can form. At least emotionally, it isn’t my community. Americans being attacked on our own soil, EXTREME DISPLEASURE!!! The fact its the LGBT community isn’t hitting me yet. Do homosexual people automatically take up a communal feeling about their identity? It doesn’t seem like it would. More that it would grow with contact and investment. But mine is brand new and I’m coming from a position of life long circumspection about any group. If not also the possiblity that its a mere installation until I’ve lived with it long enough.

The thought of making a sissy-gasm happen is quite distracting. So I’ve decided to go about making it happen. I found having a sale. *Smiles* Its a sign from the gods it is! Or their way of clearing inventory. Can’t be sure at this point. Either way, I’m taking advantage. A few toys and a little lingerie to experiment with. Nothing too perverse. 😛

I was browsing beginer makeup pages when a Pepsi commercial came on. The ladies drenched the guy with the cooler water and ice like He was the coach at a huge game. Then He took off his shirt and I felt my breath catch. This is new. That was actually pleasant.


Reading up more on Makeup. Love you WikiPedia. I may have to do a full curtsy in apology to the ladies I’d ignored due to makeup. As a group, you’ve had to put up with some real BS. Can’t argue with the results when done right though.

Giving some real thought to waxing as I can’t stand the idea of shaving again every other day. What to do about that Congolese rainforest I call my back…


I’m busy trying to work through a game when the urge takes me. I want to study the various body waxing kits and techniques. Ok, so here comes the pain train. I can do it right and have lots of pain, JOY! The site I read said 3/5 pain scale on the best of the kits. Or I can do it wrong and have lots of pain. Ingrown hairs, incomplete pulls and skin irritation. All those red bubbling pits of joy. I can’t wait! New word and concept of the day, Exfoliation. Scrubbing the skin and getting the dead stuff off. Gotcha. Apparently a mandatory in the after care of waxed areas. I got a big jar of Vaseline for the makeup I’ll wish to remove so as not to assault those I’m close to that just wouldn’t understand. Now I need to get a bottle of baby oil for the skin care. Between the clothing, personal upkeep and hygeine issues. Its a miracle the Ladies I’ve known had any time or money for movies, hiking or dinner. Never mind saving for the nigh inevitable ‘uh-oh’.

Well hey there caution! Meet wind! Just went on a bit of a shopping spree to get some of those beauty products I just don’t have the balls (hehe) to go into the store and procure face to face. Sure the costume party or I’m picking them up for my girlfriend story might hold, but I don’t trust myself to sell it. Hard waxing kit for the jungle, bras, panties, mascara and lipstick to start off with. I got nail strengthener and base coat for the baby step of ‘doing my nails’ without going to work or showing my family the pretty red shade I’m toying with. Not sure Mistress Surrender would like to market Herself with this, but I may finally have found a way to quit biting my nails. I’m pretty sure its a new thought, but I can’t help but think you ladies have been holding out on me. <.< We’ll see if I still feel that way when I’m halfway done with the waxing.

Got the measuring tape, not the cloth tape but the tool box metal measuring tape. Its what I have! I’m 45 just under the bust and 47 on the outter edge. Two sites offering bra fitting tools said there was no such size. This is going to make bra fitting, problematic. Then I had a friend that worked at Payless Shoes for a time and was telling me that ladies sizes are Men’s sizes plus two. Meaning I’m a size 12 ladies shoe. Really glad I have a mind for collecting meaningless trivia as asking the former employee about that now would never happen. The thought of going into Payless and trying on high heels is a bit nerve fraying. I’m hoping the more I think on it, the more brave I’ll get.

I do so despise needles and am hoping my fascination will wane before the whole dare to go public thing comes up. Hormones being the only thing likely to deal with my very manly muscle mass. Not likely considering that I’m averaging three Misstress Surrender sissy hypno mp3s a day. She’s just that good at putting me on slow boil thinking about the control She’s exhibiting and the cock I can service, while under Her control! The issue will be friends and family (and me) that are very religiously conservative. I’m on the dark side! All of a sudden, having a conservative lifestyle where I don’t pry and neither do they is a bonus! There’s my hypocrisy. We’ll see which lasts.

06/18 Later

Just got my box of goodies from Sub-Shop! I should have known, but now I have proof. Lingerie is fragile. The one bit was too small and I ended up Hulking out of it. The garter belt though is a bit of a thrill. The stockings in the next shipment ought to be a blast to pair with it.

The cock cage with urethral tube. Maybe I’m too excited, excite easily or I just don’t go flacid enough while pushing and prodding. The small holes on the side are too small to assist in packing the meat into the tube. Made all the more uncomfortable by the steel urethra tube. I tried some water based lube and got exactly as far as I had before, in a tenth of the time. But by then I was developing some chafing issues on the edges. I’ll have to wait until I get my hands on some hosiery to butcher and try the nylon insertion method. Which will be all the more a feat due to the urethra tube I can’t get to unscrew.

The only bits to work as advertised with zero trouble were the 6.5 inch rubber dong with suction cup, and the ball gag. The ball gag was fortunate as the last notch on the fastening belt was where it actually fit without cutting into the side of my mouth. I can deep throat the dong without much trouble at all. Can’t wait to take it for a ride in the shower.

PSA: Keep your toys clean! Your health is most important and you deny yourself all that fun if you get yourself sick or ruin your goodies. Thankfully I’ve been in a position to choose phthalate free rubber and Silicon toys. Water and light anti-bacterial soap for the win!






Darkly Addictive hypnosis…
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Delete Hetero / Install Sissy Sex  – (Reviews)

Sissy Sex or NO Orgasm!

Forget hetero sex. Forget being sexually attracted to women. I know you secretly fantasize about sissy sex with sexy men and their sexy cocks.

This hypnosis will delete your socialization of being heterosexual and install a new program to run in your subconscious mind: Sissy sex.


Erotic Hypnosis : sissy ashley jnl 12.

The following email is from a sissy subject of Mine who recently bought My feminisation mp3, and who also requested a Custom File – Implanted Memories. sissy ashley has been a subject for some time now, and the Custom Recording – Implanted Memories uses hypnosis to weave her “real” memories of childhood, with implanted memories which will rewire her subconscious mind to believe she is a girl… was born a girl… will always be a girl.
Long term conditioning of a sissy’s mind is so delicious….
I am continuing the moulding of ashley’s mind & body… controlling ashley’s orgasms.
I wonder what stage sissy ashley is at:




I love rewiring My subjects in this way…. manipulating oh so pliable memory…. toying with minds.
Darkly addictive hypnosis…that satisfies that ache…deep inside you…to be controlled. Expect a heightening of your desires…..
Wanting to experience what ashley feels?
Message Lady Surrender :


Where are you, when you listen to My voice…. My seductive whispers…?

Are you at work- as ashley was, when she listened to My “Surrender : feminisation: mp3….



Messages between Myself and ashley:

ashley : Lady Surrender, I was listening to your surrender feminization file while at work. I forgot You placed an orgasm trigger at the end. Well, for about five minutes I kept cumming as You repeated the phrase over and over :$
I listened again to see if would have the same effect and I did, but not as intense as the first time
Thank You! I hope You are well

Lady S : hmm… was this while you were at your desk?
in the lunch room?
I call that “living dangerously”!
do tell what/where you were when you heard the orgasm command….

ashley : I was at my desk in my cube working on a spreadsheet… When You gave the command my sissy clitty twitched and throbbed uncontrollably
I had to close my eyes and hold my breath to keep from moaning.


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Erotic Hypnosis : sissy training jnl 5.

The following  journal records another instalment in the training of a new sissy subject. The subject  has been unwell & unable to have privacy to listen to recordings.

I am looking forward… to joanne’s return to health… and to deepening My control and methodical Entrapment.

Excerpt from joanne’s journal no.3:

Then, Your girl can’t comprehend how You can make such profound changes inside her head with a single session. This girl has collected pictures of beautiful women for years, role models, templates for the girl Yours would like to become someday. And yes, Your girl has pleasured herself while looking at them. Until Your girl experienced “Addicted to Cock” and “Delete Hetero…” After listening one time, Your girl deleted years of pictures and began collecting pictures of women pleasuring men, taking cocks in all possible ways. New templates. New dreams. The old ones became irrelevant in a single breath.
And last night, after listening to “Craving Control” a single time, the pictures now mean nothing. Your girl has no need for them. Orgasms are still female, and are still amazing, but they aren’t important anymore. Being controlled is everything. Somehow, Your girl thinks this change of mind may be part of being controlled – no way to remember anything but Your delicious whispers. But really – no interest in the pictures at all? And a searing need to find something to prove to You how devoted she really is – to become ever more controlled. Should this girl be doing Sissy Tasks? Should she be edging, proving Your control? LIstening to more recordings? Flying to New Zealand? This one needs You to know how deeply she craves Your control…..

So delicious… to have such a compliant subject.
I love beginning with a newly brainwashed and blank mind….

Begin here…

with the foundation files…..

and I will capture your unwary mind… and have you crave… more of My control.

I am your Siren. I am your Temptress. I am your Goddess.


29 February 2016.

I have been leaving messages on twitter from time to time, advising of delays & absence from work.
I hope you are recovering….

Lady S.


OMG Mistress,

Your girl started crying right at her desk when she saw Your note! Your girl has missed listening to You and chatting with You by e-mail soo much. Her life has been closely monitored since her stay in the hospital, and her fee time is very scarce. As Spring approaches, Your girl should be able to find more private time to spend with You.

Your girl has noticed Your periods away, and knows that they could just be time to focus, or they could be a sign of illness. I say a prayer often that You remain healthy and that You are able to enjoy life both with and without Your subbies.

This girl has mostly recovered, although she still basically falls asleep at her computer at 10:30 most evenings, whereas before she routinely stayed up past midnight or 1 AM. She is working out three days a week, so hopes to get her endurance back soon.

One amazing constant has been that after all of this time, Your girl still feels a natural and deep desire for male companions – a complete change from before, and one created entirely by You. Many aspects of hypnosis fade over time, but it does seem You have made a permanent change. Sooo exciting!

Your girl had been worried that You would become so inundated with male subs that You would not have time for her, and Your girl hopes Your business thrives. It is humbling and gratifying that You remember this one – thank You sooo much for writing!

Blessings and love, Mistress!

Your joanne.

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Sissy Training 29 – Serve Mistress

Serve your Mistress!Serve your Mistress!

I am programming you to serve a mistress who will dominate you, sissify you & control you completely!

Every time you listen to this recording, you will feel overwhelmed with the desire to serve a Mistress. Every day in every way you will find ways to serve your Mistress…


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Find more of joanne’s journals >>>

See also:
Erotic Hypnosis – Sissy Slave Training Journal 4

Erotic Hypnosis : sissy slave training journal 4.

The following email was received from a new subject and describes her rewiring as she discovers My erotic hypnosis recordings.

The subject has been listening to My recordings during her work lunch-hour… as she discovers that she craves My voice each day…

The subject has been choosing “safe” recordings to listen to… during her working day… “safe”- in an effort to stay in control of the cravings that My voice and My hypnosis triggers…

The cravings that I know how to entice… and twist to My own desires.

mmm… hypnodomme arousal… There is nothing quite like toying with a new subject… slowly and methodically extending My silken, seductive control…

Unless… unless… it is to further Entrap and Enslave one of My long-term toys…

Good evening Mistress Surrender!

As You know, Your girl has been listening to “Addicted to Makeup” to feed her now undeniable addiction to Your voice. Yesterday, Your girl went into the pharmacy (apothecary?) to purchase some Christmas lights, but somehow, as soon as she walked into the store, she was drawn over to the makeup aisle, where she was suddenly possessed with the need to find a better eyeliner, as she has not been satisfied with the one she most recently used. Your girl walked around the makeup aisle for over half an hour, looking at the different liners and mascaras before she realized that she had come in for lights, and was now hopelessly late to get home. She made her purchases and left quickly, wondering how she could have been so distracted. Hmmmmmm?

You are so wonderful!


Find more of joanne’s journals >>>

See also:
Erotic Hypnosis – Sissy Space Training Journal 3