Erotic Hypnosis: Sissy Orgasm JNL 2

A delicious email from a new NZ sissy who craved to feel more of My exquisite control and experienced another Sissy Orgasm Live Session. The subject also wants to serve Me in person….

There’s a delicious thought!

I wonder what devious sissy programming I could embed in her mind….. send her out to one of the male Doms I know… as a “gift” from Me?…. mmm.

Of course- there would be conditions on the “gift”….. to ensure the Dom used sissy slut in the most… appropriate way.

I will set sissy slut tasks that she must complete at work.

Such delicious toying….

First task for sissy jane – to listen to My Sissy Bundle – Clitty Transformation.

Find this hypnosis bundle now at

These files will reinforce sissy slut’s behaviour modification and thought reprogramming that I set in place in the Live Sessions.


kneeling while i write to You, Mistress.

Mistress, i woke up from the second Live Session craving cock. You must have read my mind because You said some words and i could feel and taste cock in my mouth. my sissy pussy just craved cock to fill it. Then you said something- i don’t remember what happened- and i could feel cock in my pussy.

Mistress, i am Yours. i want to serve you. Anything you command, i will do.

i want to have You control me and send Me out to serve cock.

i want to be Your personal sissy slut.

Please Mistress, i beg You. Can i be one of Your elite slaves?

i want to feel Your control every day.

i feel so slutty whenever i hear Your voice. Your sissy recordings are so much more effective than any i have listened to before. i can’t believe i didn’t know You live in New Zealand.

Your obedient sissy slut, jane.

You can find a collection of all my free erotic hypnosis
and sissy & femdom hypnosis sessions at

Erotic Hypnosis : sissy orgasm jnl 1.

The following email was received from a sissy subject who has been listening to sissy recordings for 3 years but felt no lasting effects. Recently- this sissy began listening to My “Deepening Hypnosis” mp3 as well “Cock to clitty” mp3 and more.

A Live Hypnosis session with this sissy resulted in this sissy experiencing delicious feminine orgasms…


Lady Surrender,

I have listened to literally 100’s of erotic hypnosis recordings over the last 3 years and never experienced anything lasting past the end of the recording. Then I started reading Your blog on Your site, and listened to the “Deepening Hypnosis” mp3. That was the first time I listened to a hypnosis recording and felt like I was in a trance.


I then followed Your Live Hypnosis pre-training programme, and wow. Just blown away by Your sexy voice and Your understanding of what it means to be submissive. When I read the journals that sissy slave e had written about a Live Session with you, like, I thought maybe they were exaggerating. I really wanted to feel what slave e felt.


It’s so hard to describe what happened. I was so relaxed & didn’t hear most of the session. I remember You telling Me to come back up from trance. Then I heard certain words and I couldn’t stop cumming. Every time I heard You say the orgasm command, I just came and came. Never experienced anything like that sort of orgasm.


Lady Surrender, I am addicted to Your voice and want more.

Kneeling before You and please make me Your sissy slut forever.


NZ sissy jane


Erotic Hypnosis : sissy brainwashing jnl 4

The following email was received from a subject who asked for a Live one on one Erotic Hypnosis session, to experience a sissy orgasm.
When I talked to the subject after the session, it became apparent that sissy slut e had not believed a sissy orgasm, feminine orgasm …was possible.
I took great delight in using the hypnosis triggers I had programmed during the induction and deep trance- to trigger sissy slut e to have repeated orgasms.
Of course…. what happened next was predictable…. so many sissy orgasms that sissy slut e begged me to stop saying the hypnotic trigger phrases.
Such a delicious way to train a subject.
Longing to feel what sissy slut e feels?
you know what to do…..
Purchase a Live One on One Erotic Hypnosis session!
and become My obedient sissy slut.

Lady Surrender,

I just cannot get over it – how could I have had the experience that I did today (which was most amazing!)? Being an engineer, my behavior is to analyze things – and one of my wife’s issues with me is that I seldom give in to the emotional side, always analytical. Giving in to emotion is scary for me, however I think I am finally learning not to fear it. Things are changing now, thanks to my Goddess!
So, since I am still so hyped up and cannot sleep, am doing some research on “men having female orgasms”. Interesting. Found the attached link, very interesting. One of the primary findings is that the female orgasm is 10x stronger than the male orgasm — and some speculate a male could die from a female orgasm!  All about Theta waves – which Goddess surely knows much more about than her lowly sissy slut!
My experience today was very intense – maybe perhaps because a female orgasm is so much stronger? Being an engineer, I am “a positive skeptic” about the male biology of being capable to completely reproducing a female orgasm — although that would be pretty cool with vagina contractions! Actually I think my body mimicked those today, although I am skeptical that they were as good as a woman has. Even so, geez it was astounding!
Interesting observation — at no time during the session did I get an erection (even though I did take a Viagra beforehand). Even afterwards, tried masturbating with my Hitachi and sissy porno – I simply could not get “interested”!
Is this because I was so spent from our session? Or maybe truly the sissy training is starting to take effect? Either way: it is a win – win situation! The neat thing about the programing triggers Goddess bestowed upon me, is the ability to have a female orgasm anywhere, anytime and without porno and lubricants. I pray Goddess does not deem this last sentence vulgar – just facts I wanted to share with my Goddess.
I have to tell my Goddess, right now it would be a tough call if I had to decide on one or the other gender orgasm. Clearly, my female orgasms today were great because: they were multiple, and far more intense than all male orgasms I have had. Right now the only things I would miss about the male orgasm is the stroking on my sissy clitty — however I could do the female orgasm while rubbing my sissy clitty.
Random thoughts, I hope Godess does not mind me sending these to her. Actually I hope that these give my Goddess marketing/promotional materials – this clitty slave passionately wishes to support the business of my Goddess to the best of my abilities.
Tomorrow I will write a report on the session, keeping in mind it is something that Goddess may deem to post.
Now, I am truly going to bed. I hope Goddess’s head cold is much better!
Your most humble sissy slut,
sissy e
See also:

Erotic Hypnosis : sissy brainwashing jnl 2.

The following is an email I received from sissy slave e who recently had her first erotic hypnosis session to experience feminine orgasm.
So delicious… hearing her beg her Goddess to stop triggering her to orgasm…. as I brought her up from hypnotic trance, strengthened the hypnotic triggers and then…. toyed with her.
Repeating the triggers over and over….. as she orgasmed over and over….
I also enjoyed teasing her about her skepticism that a feminine orgasm was possible.
On this website you will be able to search/read journals written by subjects who have experienced My unique style of hypnosis…. and who have experienced that ultimate feminine experience of a feminine orgasm.
Would-be sissy sluts should compose emails of supplication, addressed to Myself…. begging for a Live Hypnosis session to experience sissy orgasm.
For subjects who don’t have privacy for a Live Hypnosis session, I have created a “Feminine Orgasm” double mp3 set….
Dear Goddess:
I am still getting trembles every few minutes from our session which ended about 30 minutes ago. Today marks a “most memorable” day in my life.
Exquisite seduction – I not only walked into Your web of seduction and caring control/domination — I ran into Your web as fast as I could. My only regret that I did not do this years ago. You, my Goddess, have changed my life!
I admit (maybe you should punish me for this *:"> blushing) whilst I have been listening to your audios with great enthusiasm, I had my doubts on the female orgasm live session in terms of would it really happen, and what the intensity would be. I guess You could say I was a positive skeptic who wanted, in the worst way, for it to be true.
I will write more about this experience, maybe you will deem it fit to share with others. Right now, however — I am going to bed, I am deliciously exhausted from obeying Your commands!!
Your deeply addicted and grateful slave!!
slave e
See also sissy slave e’s request for a Live Hypnosis session:

Erotic Hypnosis : sissy orgasm /feminine orgasm

My sissy ashley recently asked for another Live Hypnosis session, so she could experience a feminine orgasm. This subject was taken into a deep state of relaxation where I accessed ashley’s subconscious mind, and using My brainwashing hypnosis, I programmed a deliciously feminine orgasm.
I then brought the subject up from trance…. and triggered her to orgasm by repeating the programmed brainwashing and hypnotic trigger phrases.
mmm…. My sissy ashley felt a craving for cock as she had orgasm after orgasm… such an obedient sissy slut.
you too may experience the ultimate feminine experience… Live Hypnosis One on One
My Feminine Orgasm double file:
Lady Surrender–
It’s amazing how in the waves of feminine pleasure rolling across my body that a craving for cock entered my sissy mind. You led me down, down, down into a safe place for my sissy self to be receptive to Your suggestions. Perhaps You probed and observed for a time, and then You began to trigger my arousal to Your delight.
Tingling arose across my breasts and between my thighs. It spread down my stomach and down my legs. My breath grew shorter and shorter. My temples buzzed with an erotic, sissy desire and my clitty raged. I’m not sure how long before You triggered the first feminine orgasm, but when You did, the tingling turned electric. Dear goodness, You were unrelenting, and I’m grateful You allowed me such pleasure. It reached such a blissful crescendo that my innate sissy cock craving wanted to be fucked by a cock in my sissy pussy.  My lips longed for one to slide down my throats and I could wrap my tongue around the shaft.
I suppose it should only be natural that at the height of a feminine orgasm that a sissy would long for a real cock to fill her. Especially since she doesn’t have a real cock herself.
See ashley’s series of journals:

Erotic Hypnosis : femme orgasm, amnesia

The following journal was written by My monique.
monique is registered as serving Lady Surrender, on the Slave register.

In the Live One-on-One Hypnosis session, I used hypnotic trigger phrases from Gay Hypnosis mp3, as well as other sissy recordings. I also programmed hypnosis trigger phrases for monique to experience a feminine orgasm, so that monique would experience orgasm when I brought her up from trance.

I interrogated monique’s subconscious mind, while I had My sissy monique deep in trance.
I programmed monique’s subconscious mind to have amnesia – to have no memory of the conversation I had when I interrogated her subconscious mind and to “forget” all programming hypnosis.

I then brought My sissy monique up to full conscious awareness… and smiled…as I heard her gasps of pleasure …. as the feminine orgasm immediately took over her body. Such a delicious way to toy with My subject…. I then used the trigger phrases from gay Hypnosis, Addicted to Cock & other sissy recordings….. listening to monique as she her body responded to My hypnosis….

I asked monique what she could remember of the session…. & she had no memory of the programming. So- I thought I had better fix that for her…. with a trigger phrase, I took her subconscious mind back into deep trance and suggested her subconscious mind remember…everything.

Such an obedient mind – I do love playing with memory…. whether it is amnesia, re-instating memory, implanting memory….

Lady Surrender,
what a wonderful private session I had today. First of all you took me deeper than I’ve ever been before. There is no doubt that a personal session leads to the best possible effects and even though I’ve had the privilege of having had a few sessions with you before I find you improve time after time like a wonderful vintage wine.Your words went straight to all my pleasure receptors and at one point I felt totally deconnected from all my body sensations and just floated without a care in the world.
Then you woke me up to ask me what I remembered and I thought oh dear what just happened? My only desire was to pursue the wonderful feminine orgasm I was experiencing and I didn’t really care much about anything else.
Then you brought me back down and gave me all my memory back and I thought Wow! How did you do that?! But I’m glad you did because you allowed me to experience so many deliciously naughty slutty feelings and actions that you knew I was craving for.
I’m tempted to guard you as a secret but as serving you is so wonderful I’m pleased to share and promote you to others.The more success you gather the happier I am.

your monique

Find more of monique’s journals >>>

Feminine Orgasm – Level 1

Priming you for the next step!

This recording will condition and prime you to experience a sexy and intense feminine orgasm.

I will remove all of your  doubts that you can experience a delicious melting… feminine orgasm… I will delete all of your prior socialisation and experience of male orgasms.

READ MORE about this file at

Feminine Orgasm – Level 2

No Fantasy – Simply Orgasmic Bliss!

I love giving My femme subjects the experience of feminine oragsm during live one-on-one Hypnosis sessions.

Now you can experience the melting bliss of cumming in waves of feminine pleasure whenever you desire and within the privacy of your home!

READ MORE about this file at 

You can find a collection of all my free erotic hypnosis
and femdom & fetish hypnosis sessions at

Erotic Hypnosis : Feminine Orgasm & Feminization & Live Session Journal 6

The following journal records the correspondence between Myself and subject “c”, (now named joanne) who dreams of being feminised by a strong woman. Subject c has been listening to My mp3 recordings.

Recently- subject “c” has experienced an episode of purging all feminine clothing, and all things associated with feminisation. My hypnosis recordings were not deleted. My brainwashing file – “Morning Mantra of Blankness” is the essential file to listen to, as preparation for embedding feminisation or sissy hypnosis. The Morning Mantra of Blankness removes the socialisation and behaviour of being a “male” and leaves a blank slate ready for My Darkly Addictive hypnosis.

Follow that with My “Deepening Hypnosis” mp3 which conditions the mind to accept the hypnotic suggestions contained in the file, and programmes the subconscious mind to enter trance.

Recently, joanne had her very first Live One-on-One Hypnosis session, in which I programmed her to experience feminine orgasms….. as well as using trigger phrases to increase submission, and to strengthen her fetish attachments.

Feminine Orgasm Level 1 removes the socialisation of being male and of thinking about sex in a “male” belief pattern. This is an essential step to … Feminine Orgasm Level 2 … which contains the Feminine Orgasm hypnosis… which has you experiencing a feminine orgasm the way a biological woman would experience a feminine orgasm.



My lovely Lady Surrender,

Thank you so much for the live session. I’ve thought of little else since. It was all so delicious, so very, very special. I still can’t find the words.
Your “Deepening Hypnosis” recording has so much more meaning now. Listening to that and then “Feminine Orgasm 1”, then returning to “Deepening Hypnosis”, then “Feminine Orgasm 2”. I let myself dress in satin and lace. I am yours. Delicious is the word. You are so right.
You are truly a lovely, special Lady. What a privilege it was to speak with you, surrender to you, accepting every word. There was no let down. I’ve been in a daze, a hypnotic, arousing spell. Your spell. I only hope I can have another session.

Your girl joanne

Wanting to feel what joanne feels? 

Purchase Morning Mantra of BlanknessFeminine Orgasm Level 1 & 2, and Deepening Hypnosis… listen… and become Entranced… become Mine.

Binding you Closer to Me.

Find more of joanne’s journals >>>

See also:
Erotic Hypnosis – Feminization using MP3s

Erotic Hypnosis: hypno slave training using Mantra mp3s, Feminisation.



More than a great sounding marketing strategy, the above process outlines the journey undertaken by subject “submissive surrendered”. Read his journals….. imagine it is you…… being enticed… being hypnotised…you being entranced…you being entrapped….. enslaved.

Subject “submissive surrendered” began by listening to Morning Mantra of Submission and Morning Mantra of Temptation….. then listened to feminine orgasm, feminine breasts, and Morning Mantra of Blankness.



July 10

Hi Mistress Surrender. Just a quick note to say I just bought both of Your Morning Mantras, and will finally be able to listen to them in about an hour. I’m really looking forward to finally hearing a session of Yours. I’m always excited to hear somebody new, but it’s different this time
because of how long I’ve wanted to hear Your voice. I’ll be honest, I have always questioned if true brainwashing through hypnosis is actually possible, I’ve felt many effects over the years listening to Dommes, but nothing long lasting.
There is something about the things You say, and what Your subjects write to You that questions my view though. I know one thing for certain, I’m looking forward to finding out. Thank You so much for allowing me to buy Your sessions.
Take care.

July 10

I’m looking forward to seeing what else You put out in the
future. I know that everything You put out wouldn’t be something that interests me, but right now I’m feeling that even if it isn’t something I wanted, but You wanted me to listen to, I would. I know I’ve only listened to You this one
time, but I really like how it felt, and still feels. Maybe one day You’ll allow me to purchase a custom session from You. I have a love fetish as I mentioned, but for once I don’t know if that’s what I’d ask for. Based on reading Your posts all this time on IR, I’m tempted to ask if You would make
one of Your choice. The idea of You taking total complete control of my mind, and doing with me what You want, is very exciting. I know I’m talking crazy, but I’m still feeling the after effects of Your hypnosis, and my mind is going
in all different directions at the moment. For now I’ll happily listen to what sessions I already have, and wait to see what You put out. Unless there is something You already have out that I should get that You don’t have to re-do.

July 11

Good morning (for me anyway) Mistress Surrender. I slept with Your two sessions on a loop as I mentioned yesterday. Good idea, REALLY good idea. I don’t remember much of it dream wise, bits and pieces, but I woke up feeling very strange, and I still do, but it’s a great strange. Lucky me
gets to sleep with them again tonight. I can’t wait. If it wasn’t for work I’d be listening right now. Just thought You’d like to know. Have a great

July 11

Good morning again Mistress Surrender. Now I know for sure it’s morning for You. You’re sixteen hours ahead of me. Something I won’t forget. I’m sorry to be a pest, and I’ll be sure to stop, but as the day has gone on, the strange feeling I had this morning just keeps getting stronger.
Now it isn’t so much strange though. It’s more like an ache to listen to Your sessions again. It’s odd though. I barely remember them. I couldn’t tell You anything You said in them, but I can’t stop thinking about hearing them again.
You may notice some changes to my account. I changed my name, updated the info, and added a picture. I hope the changes I made are OK with You. If they aren’t
I’ll change them right away. I also posted a testimonial for You. All of this because I can’t stop thinking about You. I know, it’s only been one day.
ONE DAY, and yet I can’t get You out of my head. In all the years I’ve listening to EH I have never experienced anything close to this. It’s almost scary what’s happening, and yet, even if I was scared to death it wouldn’t matter. I’d want more. I need more of You. I’m not exactly sure what’s going on, but I hope that You’re happy with the results of my listening to You. I can’t get You out of my head, but the more I think about it, the more I realise that I don’t want to. I like You there. It just feels right.

July 11

Yes, Mistress Surrender (or do You prefer Lady Surrender?), I am feeling the same way as when I wrote the message. I need more of You. I’ve been to Your site all day long. I’ve even joined Club Sissy because You said it
would help in my surrender to You. I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t somewhat
excited when You wrote that forced feminization is Your specialty. Not so much
from the feminization side, but rather the forced anything. I can’t wait to
sleep with You again. Only three more hours and I get to hear Your voice one
more time, all night long. After seeing how doing that once has already
effected me, I can only imagine what I’ll feel like tomorrow, and the day
after, and the day after that. I’m not sure what it is You’re doing to me, but
I’m helpless to resist it. Once again I thank You for allowing me to listen to
Your sessions. Thank You so much.

July 11

Then Lady Surrender it is. Anything You want is what I’ll do.
Surrender is inevitable, and I am well on my way to complete surrender to You,
Lady Surrender.

July 12

Good night, Lady Surrender. I woke up a bit ago from sleeping
with Your sessions again. I actually woke at one point and was listening awake
for an hour plus. In all the years I’ve listened to EH I have never felt
anything as intense as Your voice and whisper. It’s almost like You knew
exactly what I needed to make me submit to You. Besides the Morning Mantra of
Blank that You list on Your site, I don’t know if You plan to make any more in
Your Morning Mantra style, but if You do, I will be getting them. It’s only
been two days and already I can’t imagine not listening to Your beautiful
voice, and it’s getting more beautiful all the time. There is so much going on
inside me right now, I’m not sure what’s happening, but I do know that I want
to hear You more. I need to. Have a good night Lady Surrender.

July 12

I certainly will expand on what I said, Lady Surrender. I
know it’s very late for You. When You come back on in the morning I’ll have
Your answer for You. I have to give it some thought. It’s hard to explain
something like that, but I will give it my best shot. I’ll also tell You more
about myself.. I’m very happy to hear You’ll be making many Morning
Mantras. I remember vaguely at the end of Your Temptation one something about
You being at the edge of my mind and blowing a kiss. It’s hard to remember even
though I’ve heard it many times, I do remember the feeling of love that comes
over me at that point. Maybe not love, but a gentle, loving feeling that feels
wonderful. I’ll stop rambling now so I can ramble more later when I answer Your
question. Have a wonderful night. 🙂

July 12

Good morning, Lady Surrender. I hope You had a good nights
sleep. I was thinking

about how to answer Your question as to why I feel You know exactly how to make
me submit to You, and I think I got it.

When I

listen to hypnosis, and am told to picture something in my mind, I can’t. I was

hoping as I got better at hypnosis that I would be able to, but I never have. I

can imagine it, but I can’t picture it at all. So that’s an area of hypnosis I

miss out on. So sessions that have stories to them have never been my favorite.

I do like some of them, but most I don’t listen to, too many times. Your

Morning Mantras are made with what I have always liked in sessions, and dont

have what I don’t like as much. I’m not crazy about music in sessions. I’ve heard

some sessions where the music does help, but for the most part it’s just

something that is fighting with my trying to hear what’s being said. One thing

I do like that Your Morning Mantras don’t have, or if they do I can’t hear it,

is a brainwave/binaurel beat type of thing. I’ve always liked the feeling they

give me, but I like to be able to hear them. I don’t miss being able to hear

beats in Your Morning Mantras because of what they do have. Your voice and Your

whispers, and the whole time one of the two, or both, is giving commands or

implanting/strengthening triggers. I’ve always reacted best to one voice with

background subliminals (in this case Your whispers) and lots of commands. I

like the feeling of my mind being bombarded with words until it feels like I

can’t take it anymore. That’s when I’m at my weakest. At least I think that’s

why Your Morning Mantras seem to be effecting me so well. I hope this makes

sense, Lady Surrender. I know what I like, it’s hard to explain why I like it



that’s the answer (I hope) to Your question, and a little more about me. If You

want to know anything at all please ask, and I’ll answer as best I can. If

You’d like to see what I look like I’ll send You a picture or three. Anything

You want, if I can do it, I will. Have a

wonderful day Lady Surrender. Thank You for letting me listen to You.

OH, I just remembered. I

was on Your site and saw what You wrote about the Morning Mantra Blank, and it

really excited me. The idea of You wiping me clean in preparation for You to

program me to be what You want me to be struck something in me. You taking

complete control of me, and making me into exactly what You want me to be, for

You, is something I want badly. Before I started listening to You I would

fantasize about something like that when reading Your posts on IR. It was a

fantasy, nothing more. After listening to Your two Morning Mantras for about 16

hours (awake and asleep) the last few days You taking over is much more than a

fantasy. It’s more of an ache for it to happen. I know it’s only been a few

days, but I’ll keep listening to Your sessions to prepare my mind for You in

case You decide You want to take over. I can’t believe how deep the desire to

give myself to You is in me. It’s crazy, but I can’t help what I’m feeling, and

honestly don’t want to. I love how I’m feeling

July 13

Good morning Lady Surrender. Hope Your night was a good one.
Mine was

great. I was able to sleep with Your sessions once more, and when I woke up, I

listened to them again. After I was done I came to a realization, but I waited

to write. I’ve learned that if I write

things when I’ve just come out of trance I tend to regret it later. It’s
been hours now so it’s safe to write,

and I’m still thinking the way I was before.

When I saw You put out mp3 sessions

I was very excited. Like I’ve mentioned, I’ve been following Your posts since

You came to IR, and was always fascinated by what You wrote. Some of what You

wrote sounded impossible, but I never doubted You. I now know I was right not

to. I’m experiencing it myself. Hypnosis or brainwashing has never had much

long term effect on me, so I doubted it could. I was wrong, Lady Surrender. I

was so wrong. This morning I came to the realization that I am helpless when it

comes to You. Every time I listen to You the effects get more intense, the

hypnosis gets deeper, even Your Temptation trigger puts me under noticeably

deeper instantly. That doesnt happen to me, or I should say, never has before.

Yes, I’m helpless against Your powers, and I now know that even though I had no

desire to serve just one Mistress ever again. (I’ve been very happy listening

to everybody and anybody), I need to serve only You. I don’t want to listen to

anybody else but You. I want to give myself, mind and body, to You to do what

You want with me. I want to love,

worship, and obey the one Mistress who has put me on my knees, You, Lady

Surrender. I want to be Yours if You’ll have me. Is there anything I can do to

be worthy of such an honor? I know this has happened quickly, and I realize it

will take some time to be worthy of You, but I’m a very patient person and will

do anything needed to become worthy of one day being Yours. Thank You once

again for allowing me to listen to Your files, and write to You. Thank You so

much. Have a great day.

July 13

Since you are going to be away for a while, I’ll answer You
properly when I’m able in a couple hours, Lady Surrender. I am so happy You
liked what I wrote, and will give You a brief history of what I’ve been through
to answer You question completely. Thank You so much for what You have done for
me already. I bow at Your feet, figuratively, not literally. I’d love to
really bow at Your feet, but I hurt my knee a while back and can’t actually
kneel, but if I could, I’d be there for You. 🙂

Sorry if my attempt at humor is misplaced. I really can’t kneel though.

Mon at 1:32 PM

Thank You so much Lady Surrender. I am with You 100% in
regard to

letting things between You and I unfold. Not only because it’s what You

wish, but also because it makes sense. I do rush into things, and even when I

was offering myself to You I knew it would take time. I was thinking about what

it is that happened to have You effect me so deeply so quickly, and I think

it’s a number of things. First would be my reading Your posts for so long, and

being drawn to the things You’ve said. Then, once we talked a bit, I realized

You are a very friendly real person, and that means a lot to me. Then of course

there is Your hypnosis. It caught me by surprise it was so effective, and in

Your Temptation Mantra You say at some point to be Yours, so I wanted to be

Yours. Put those three things together and I had to write to You offering

myself to You. I am very happy I did. Your response showed me much about You

and I now know that You truly are a Woman that I wish to serve, in time of

I read Your post on Your website. The one about what You look for in a

submissive. I loved it. It showed me that we are actually on the same page

about a lot of things. The main part being loving to myself first. No
matter how enslaved I become to You, the

fact of the matter is that the most important thing in my life is my family.

Without them, I’d be nothing, and that would do You, or me, no good. The fact

that You not only allow a submissive to put their lives first, but actually

encourage it touches me deeply. I already trusted You, but after reading what

You wrote, on Your blog, and to me, I now have complete trust in You. I know

You would do nothing to hurt me, and that alone will make listening to Your

sessions even more intense. At the start there was a little trepidation. What

if You were as good as I think You are, and if You were, should I let You into

my mind. Well, it turns out You are even

better than I thought You were, and now that I know You a little better, I have

no fear whatsoever to let You into my mind. It really is a freeing feeling

knowing that I can now listen to You knowing that whatever happens now, and in

the future, You would never hurt me in any way.

I’ll be honest, Lady Surrender, I’m having a hard time putting what I’m trying

to say into words. You may have noticed that from my first two paragraphs. I

guess to sum it up I could just say, I do wish to serve You, and only You. I

trust You completely, and I would like to just allow things to unfold between

us, as You said.

Just to let You know, I am planning on only listening to Your sessions. To

be honest, I lost interest in EH until I found You. I didnt have time to listen
to anything at all for almost six weeks.

During the few times I could I had no interest. Over the past few months there

has been a couple of other Dommes that I listened to, and liked their work very

much. I tried to give more of myself to them, and their work, but as I got

closer, I couldnt get past the fact that I didnt really trust them. I just

didnt get the feeling that I would be ok if I gave them full control so I

backed away. Trust is the most important thing to me, it has to be. Even if I

said it wasnt, my mind protects itself, and won’t let me go any further. So

without trust, I have nothing. So when I tell You I trust You completely it’s a

pretty big thing in my mind. I don’t take that lightly, just as I don’t take

lightly offering my submission to You. I was told me long ago that my

submission is a precious thing. Not something to be given lightly. I have

always remembered that, and lived by it. So while I know it would be ok to

listen to others, I really don’t want to. Mainly because I didnt want to listen

to anybody before I met You anyway. I

havent looked forward to listening to any EH in a long time. During the times I

wasnt able to listen the past year and a half or so I didnt care, and when I

could, I rarely did. I have a renewed interest in EH, and it’s because of You.

So while I know I could listen to others, I don’t see the need.

I guess that’s enough rambling for now. Thank You again for everything. I

look forward to seeing what happens in the future. I feel really good about

this. I havent felt this good about something in a long time, and it’s nice to

feel it again. Oh, and I totally

understand Your not replying to messages tues – thurs. I’ll try not to write

on those days unless You tell me You like getting messages even when You’re not

replying. Have a great week, Lady Surrender. Thanks for everything.

Good morning, Lady Surrender.
Hope You’ve been well. I hope it’s ok to

write You during Your no contact time of the week. If You don’t want me to

please tell me and I won’t again. I tried to hold off, but there is so

going on in me that I feel like I’m going to burst. Ok, maybe not burst

exactly, more like explode. That’s more like it. As bad luck would have
it, I’m

in one of the periods when I can’t listen to Your sessions the way I want

I’ve told You about those times, and I’ve also told You that they didnt

me at all. That listening to hypnosis wasnt that important to me. It isnt

that now though. Not being able to crawl into bed and turn on my mp3
player to

hear Your beautiful voice is driving me crazy. When I first started

to EH, and was getting good at being hypnotized I used to hate the times I

couldnt listen, but it was never anything like this. I want to hear You so

badly it almost hurts, and to be honest, it’s ok. I hate not hearing You,

I’m loving that not being able to is effecting me so deeply. Not sure if

makes sense, but I’m rarely sure if what I say makes sense.

One thing that I realized today is that in thirteen days I’m going away for

five nights. It’s easy enough to get to listen to You a little when I’m home,

but when I’m away like that, not a chance. If I think it’s tough now, I can

only imagine how hard that will be. I have to tell You, Lady Surrender, not

only have You renewed my interest in EH, You have already taken it to levels

higher than it ever was. It’s not only the EH of course, it’s You, and Your EH.

I can’t get You out of my head. I wake up, I think of You, I go about my day, I

think of You, I go to bed, I think of You. One would think that would make me a

little crazy, but I’m loving it. Thinking of You excites me, and the more I

think of You, the more I want to think of You, and hear You. These feelings are

getting stronger every day, a lot stronger. I’ve always gotten a little like

this when meeting somebody new to listen to, but I’m always able to push it out

of my head and control it. Even when I was owned I could push things down, I

can’t with You. I have no way of controlling what’s going on, so I’m not even

trying to.

Yesterday, since I really couldnt listen to You I needed to go to Your site

and read some of Your words. I decided to go through Your blog, the whole

thing, and what I saw there shocked me (in a great way), excited me, and
gave me quite a bit of

insight into You, and Your other submissives. I started from the oldest archive

and worked my way up to the present. I found out that the way You have effected

me so quickly isnt all that unusual. I didnt read every part of it word for

word. The baby submissive’s story didnt interest me that much, but I did read

what You wrote in those posts. The rest though I read closely. I was surprised

at how much Your feminized girls stories excited me. I mentioned being forced

to become a woman was one of my first submissive fantasies when I was a

teenager, and to see it actually happening did turn me on. Not that You were

forcing them, but the transformation was interesting. With my home life, and

job, being feminized wouldnt be a good thing. It’s not something that would go

over well in my life if I was ever found out. At one point though, I saw the

post about the guy in a similar situation and You feminized him inwardly so

from the outside he still looked like a guy, but on the inside he was a woman.

Now that really got my attention. Of course I took it to another fantasy level

in my mind of feeling like a woman and working around the house in lipstick

when I was alone. Then I pictured what I’d look like and laughed to myself. I

would not be a pretty woman, that’s for sure. Oh, that other session I bought

yesterday was Your female orgasm one, and I suppose I should tell You why. I

saw Your post about the new session coming out about breasts and nipples on IR

the other night. I decided that I wanted that one for one reason. My nipples

are probably the most sexually sensitive part of my body. Rubbing them drives

me crazy. The thought of them becoming even more sensitive excited me so I

I wanted it, not so much for the feminizing aspect, but the nipple one. Then,

after reading Your blog, I really wanted to hear another of Your sessions and

thought of the female orgasm one. I’m not exactly sure what that would be, or

feel like, and since it seemed to be an inside thing, it wouldnt hurt to listen

to it. I did hear it yesterday, but I was sitting up and trying not to go

under. I did go under, and don’t remember too much about it except how

beautiful Your voice was. It’s a different style than Your Morning Mantras. It

really sounded great.

While I was reading Your blog I noticed that nobody had a fetish like my

love fetish. After seeing how easily You helped Your other subs to become what

they wanted it really (here comes that word again) excited me to fantasize You

working on me with my love fetish. A bit about my fetish. I think that my love

fetish is about more than just love. I think deep down it’s about control. The

idea of being head over heals in love with a Domme is an exciting thing, but

it’s the control involved with it is what I think really turns me on. I think

my real fetish is a control fetish. I’ve always had a very strong mind, and

sense of self. I’m a bit stubborn, but I pick and choose the things I’m

stubborn about. The idea of somebody being able to take total control of me and

my obeying them not because I want to, but because I have no choice but to obey

is the real fantasy/fetish. I think I go with the love way of control because

being in love feels great. Does any of this make sense? I hope so. It isnt easy

to describe this fetish in a way that makes sense, but as I always do, I try

anyway. I know I mentioned a custom session at some point, and You graciously

said You’d make one for me and I thank You for that. I wanted to say that

anytime You think I’m ready for a custom session, I’ll pay You for it. I could

sit here and ask for one soon, but I won’t do that. I’d like to let You decide

when I’m ready for it, if that’s ok with You of course. If You’d like, I’ll pay

for one soon, and when You decide I’m ready, be it a week, or a year, it will

already be paid for. I’d love to do a live session one day, but I really can’t

afford them. I know that custom files are more expensive, but I can listen to

that over and over so would like to go that way, but, again, I’m sure I’d have

at least one live session one day. After reading about how amazing at them You

are, I’d really love to experience one for myself one day.

Well that’s all for now, Lady Surrender. Sorry for the loooong message, but

I had to do it. It was the only way to deal with not being able to listen to

You right now. Yep, I’m nuts, but I gotta be me. 🙂

Have a great day, Lady Surrender. Take care.


P.S. Reading this back, I can’t believe I told You some of those things. I’ve
never said them to anybody before. Methinks I’m very comfortable being myself
with You. It’s really kind of freeing.

Thu at 11:44 AM

Good morning, Lady Surrender. Hope You had a great night.
Thank You so much for showing Your play on Twitter, and for commenting on my
post here. It was fun. 🙂 Just a quick note to tell You I just
bought Your new session. I can’t listen to it yet, but I have it. I have
avoided any type of feminization for many years, yet when You put it like You
did, secret life, feel like a woman, I’m not only not avoiding it, but I’m
craving it. I can’t believe I’m feeling like this, and I really can’t believe
I’m telling You, but I can’t stop myself, and even if I could, I wouldn’t. I
trust You completely, and how could I expect to win Your trust in return if I
wasn’t totally honest with You. Everything I told You yesterday about how I’ve
been feeling is much, much stronger today. The very thought of Your voice makes
me crazy, and I can’t stop thinking about Your voice, or You. I don’t know
exactly what’s happening to me, but I love how it feels. Thank You so much.
Have a great day.

Thu at 8:42 PM

Hi Lady Surrender. Hope You’re doing well.

I’d be very happy if You wanted to post parts of my messages to You. Yes,

they are private, but if You like them, and You want to post them, then please

do. I wouldnt know where to begin on editing them though. I don’t know what You

would like to post, so as long as it isnt something really personal, post what

You want. I wish to serve

You, and only You, and if You want to show to others the effect You’ve had on

me then I’d be honored. Thank You for wanting to.

Next month would be wonderful for a custom recording, and if not next

month, whenever You’re able is fine by me. It’s only been a little more than a

week, and I have so much to listen to already, AND You’re putting out Morning

Mantra Blank soon! If I got a custom now, I’d only listen to it, I know me too

well, but the longer I wait, the longer I have to become closer to You.
I want nothing more than to be as close to

You as possible. I may have jumped the gun when I asked to be Yours, but the

more time that passes, the more I know it is what I want. I will become a sub

worthy of You, Lady Surrender. I’ve never felt more strongly about anything,

and I will do my best to be that sub for You.

When I have the chance to listen to Your breast sessions I will be sure to

tell You how it feels. I’ll also post a review on it, as I will with all Your

sessions I listen to. I think it’s important, and I get the chance to gush

about You. Always a good thing.

I did a little looking and it seems like the chocolate You’d like isnt

available in NZ. I don’t care about shipping costs. If You want it, I’d like to

get some for You. It would mean a lot to me to do so. I’ll keep checking Your

wish list in case You ever put some up.

Thank You again for everything, Lady Surrender. You have opened something

in me I didnt know was there, and I always be thankful for You doing that for


Fri at 4:04 PM

Good morning Lady Surrender. Hope You had a wonderful night.
I’ve had a not too shabby day today. I had an unexpected two hours free today
and I’m sure You can guess what I did. Yep, I listened to YOU! FINALLY. Damn I
needed that. I listened to Your two Morning Mantras and of course Your new
breast session. I was going to listen to the MM’s first, but I wanted to see
what listening to one of Your other sessions would be like without feeling the
effects of the MMs. I wanted to see how it took me under. GOOD NEWS! It took me
under, and I went under deep. I was even interrupted on the phone halfway
through. Took the call, got annoyed that it was ruined. Put my headphones back
on hoping for the best, and I was out again within fifteen seconds. So it
seems that no matter what induction/style You’re using, I’m helpless against You
and Your hypnosis. I must say I’m very happy about that.

Now about Your breast session. I have to be honest, I loved

it! I don’t know if I’ll be feeling feminized inside from it, but I loved how

it felt to listen to. I didn’t release at the end, I’ve never been able to

hands free release, but when You said release It hit me hard, and felt

wonderful. OH, and I didn’t miss the ironic part of the session. Fist thing You

said was to put on red lipstick. I made my (semi) joke yesterday about having

You add a part about my having the urge to wear makeup while listening to Your

sessions, and there it was first thing. I wasn’t able to get up and put any on,

but now that it’s been awhile, I know that I’ll be putting it on the next time

I listen if I’m alone. I’m kind of tempted to wear it when listening to Your

other sessions too. If for no other reasons the feel and taste of it. I’m

looking forward to it. Maybe I’d better rethink what I said about Your session

not making feel feminized on the inside huh? 🙂

OH, I forgot to add on important point on my answering of

Your custom session questions. That being, if there is anything You want to add

that I didnt list. Anything at all, please do it. I’m here for You, and if You

think it would be good for You and I, You have free reign. I want nothing more

than being the best me I can be for You, and if You see something I don’t to

make that possible, please do it.

I also want to mention something weird I just notice while

writing this. Normally I feel the effects of sessions the most right after

listening. That’s not what happens with You. For the most part I feel perfectly

normal right after. It’s later that things start to hit me hard, and it builds,

and builds, and builds. Then, when it stops building, it doesnt go away. I love

it! 😀

Have a great day, Lady Surrender. I won’t be up late tonight

if You’re chatting on a post somewhere, I have to work tomorrow, but I’ll be

thinking of You. I always am.

Sat at 7:17 AM
Hi Lady Surrender. I just got to work, but after I do a few
things that need to be done I will of course add what You want to my review.

I have to say I’m pretty excited. Today starts a period of being able to listen
to You a lot. If nothing changes, I’ll be able to listen six of the next nine
nights, and many of the days during that time. I was getting ready for work
this morning at home, I’m usually out of bed and on the road in fifteen minutes
or less, and I thought about being able to hear You and the wave of excitement
that came over me took me by surprise. Then I started thinking about how I was
feeling and all that I could think of is that I don’t care what You want to do
with me. If You want to do it, I welcome it. Yep, a bit on the nutty side, but
I was really feeling the effects of listening to You yesterday, yes, still, and
whatever it is that is going on in my helpless mind is making me crave more and
more of You, and more control. I don’t know what’s coming over me, but I have
to say, it feels right, and I’m loving it. The down side of being able to
listen so much is that it’s going to make those five nights I’m away that much
tougher, but that’s ok with me, I need to hear You as often as I can. I’m not
exactly sure why (I do have a sneaky suspicion though), but I can’t get enough
of You. I’ve said it before, and knowing my rambling writing I’ll say it again,
in all the years I’ve listened to EH nothing like this has ever happened
before. I’ve known submission, but I’m beginning to get the feeling that I’m
about to find out what true submission really is. Just the thought of that just
gave me a chill that felt great. Have a good night Lady Surrender.

Erotic hypnosis: training a sissy through mp3s, Live Sessions and Custom recordings. Journal 5.

The following email was received from sissy ashley, who ordered a custom recording and has been listening to it since 27 April. sissy ashley has also had a Live Session to experience those ultimate feminine experiences of …feminine orgasm, and feminine breasts and nipples. I am continuing to programme sissy ashley with My feminisation recordings. These feminisation recordings are complex….layered…and use deep programming….INTENSE programming. Drawing on My experience as a therapist, I have created feminisation hypnosis recordings that are being described as “brainwashing” – such is their intensity. In sissy ashley’s case, I am continuing with a programme of…sissifying…. feminising… hypnotising.

sissy ashley recently asked for more control over orgasm, and asked what sort of control could I enforce through hypnosis? The next Live One-on-One Session with sissy ashley was  this weekend, when sissy ashley was programmed for control over arousal and orgasm…to tie her responses to particular circumstances….. to only become aroused when in the company of women. Also- to have a feminine orgasm only.

Today at 5:33 AM

Last night is still fuzzy but I think I remember you asking me to email you about it. I do recall becoming very relaxed at the sound if your voice as you led me into trance. At one point there was a house then a garden and then an elevator. Out of the elevator you took my hand and led me to a mirror. Here’s where it begins to blur into colors and sensations. I looked into the mirror to see my sissy self, thin and soft skin with long dark hair and large red lips. Naked, my sissy clitty throbbed and tingled. You took control of my sissy clitty and my senses and entwined them with the sensations of a female orgasm. At one point my hand moved down to my sissy clitty and I rubbed it back and forth using only my fingers. That’s how a woman does it, right? I hope I asked you first before doing that. Did I?

One thing I definitely remember as you kept triggering the feminine orgasm was the tingling sensations throughout my body. The curious thing I remember was while my fingers were rubbing my sissy clitty AND as you triggered the orgasm, I imagined being penetrated by a penis. That was a different sensation for sure.

Towards the end after my sissy clitty made a mess I remember a glow of sorts and smaller tingling sensations as I just let go and let you do as you wished.

I guess I’ll find out what triggers you instilled but for now that’s all I can recall.

Thank you!




Erotic Hypnosis: feminine orgasm mp3s + training of hypno slave

I do so enjoy hearing from My subjects…..subjects who have been hypnotised by My mp3s and who respond oh so deliciously … to My Voice…My programming…My hypnosis. The following emails were recently received from an obedient subject, who began listening to My Sex Slave mp3, and has now moved to listen to- and obey- feminine orgasm level 1 & 2. Yet another subject who has fallen to My INTENSE feminisation hypnosis…complex, deep and layered hypnosis…. based on My experience as a psychotherapist.


Dear Mistress,

i just wanted to express my appreciation after going through multiple listens of your mp3 file “My Sex Slave” last night. i went much deeper than i ordinarily go – much much deeper – and the delicious fantasies that you proposed stayed with me long after the session finished.

i’m lying in bed now and my skin is tingling. i have an erection that i can’t seem to get rid of but i’m happy just letting it stick out and up from the covers, not needing to touch it, just proud that it is there, a sign that in some way i’ve perhaps become attuned to the idea of being a sex slave, your sex slave Mistress.

i look forward to continuing this journey, looking forward to yielding many more times to your soft and sleepy, sexy and oh so silky kiwi accent


thank you Mistress

your sex slave



Dear Mistress,

Your mp3 file “My Sex Slave” file is quite remarkable – i listened to it on loop on tuesday, skipping through 4 cycles, feeling each trance take me deeper and deeper and more and more deliciously in Your control. Today i will try and get the other sessions .

once more – thank you for this. my original email – in cruder terms – described how I continue to feel – the image of me being You sex slave has conjured a wealth of images and possibilities in my head.


Your sex slave



Dear Mistress,

Thank You very much for your reply – i felt a flutter of excitement when i read your name in my in-box. i am only too happy to have my emails used as testimonials but on rereading noticed several typos – oops. my work has stopped me from fully engaging in any more of your wonderful audio charms for the last week but I am hoping to have time next week to explore your two other files and even look beyond these – there is certainly the promise of a lot more in your mp3s and that excites me so much.

your surrendered sex slave


My reply:


I trust My Surrendered slave will purchase and obey…My latest mp3 released yesterday?

I await your compliance.

Surrender is inevitable.


Dear Mistress,

this slave is excited and about to go shopping. finally, this slave has some time to explore..apologies for not purchasing prior…

sex slave k

My reply:
I see you have been busy…. purchasing some more of My hypnosis files.
I look forward to hearing from you…. describing your submission to My Voice and My hypnosis.

Using your weakness to bind you closer to Me.

Lady Surrender.



delicious experiences…i was a little surprised by the deep brainwashing aspect of the files…but feminine orgasm is blowing me away..i was initially a little disappointed that the induction was the same as for sex slave but it is such an effective one (that takes me so deep) that in the end i understand the logic of it…this slave has only listened to file 2 for feminine orgasm once but it was almost unbearably charged with sex. i actually could not listen to the whole file and found myself waking in a state of unbelievable excitement – i think it was the shakes and tremors my body was having that woke me…

wonderful work. this slave senses that his weakness will force him to listen to more and more and eventually, inevitably, to submit in a live session if Lady allows.

your weak and bound slave


Dear Lady Surrender

just to add something…i am a kiwi and may i say how wonderful it is to listen to your oh-so-familiar accent and feel it so close to me.

bound and weak, weak and bound


My reply:

I am busy editing a new feminsation script and saw your message.
surprised by the brainwashing aspect??…. do explain more about that comment.

I use the same induction in a series…remember that hypnosis works by repetition. So often- a subject will say they are bored by hypnosis ( not by My files specifically). Feeling bored is part of the conscious mind still trying to stay in control…ignore that boredom response!

I am delighted with your response to feminine orgasm hypnosis… I have still to post reviews of the double feminine orgasm files- would love to use your emailed response as a review. I believe the feminine orgasm file is a very deep, complex and layered file that delivers the ultimate feminine experience of a feminine orgasm.

Yes, I do love using your weakness against you…I look forward to toying with you in a Live Session.

Using your weakness to bind you closer.

a kiwi?
How lovely! There are so few Kiwi submissives interested in EH.


i was surprised by the fact that there was so much repetition between the two files and, being new to the breadth of your styles, half-expected the style to veer into a fantasy rather than the oh-so-heavy brainwash. now i have a clearer idea of how it works. i will keep you posted on this. this slave also believes, like Mistress, that there is a depth a complexity in the feminine orgasm files that uncovers itself slowly and is yet to emerge for me. i believe, and i don’t think i’m overstating this, that these files fit into the category of art rather than porn or psychological manipulation. this slave wonders if this is how you see them as well.

may slave ask if you have any plans to turn your slaves or sissies into robots?

on bended knee



this slave is sure that there are even fewer kiwi Hypno-dommes than submissives. *shy smile*

lucky slave


My reply:

My goodness!
did slave not read anything on My web site??
I included links under the feminine orgasm files to My web site where subjects e.g.wendy, ashley, m etc have experienced feminine orgasm for real…yes, real Live One=on-One sessions where the subject experiences feminine orgasm.

I know that submissives read the mp3 description and think that it isn’t possible…but actually- it’s just a normal hypnosis outcome as far as I am concerned….I have based the mp3 recordings on My experience in My psychotherapy practise….
slave should read My web site for journals from subjects who have had their sexual arousal level toyed with…..

I base My EH on My therapy background…. as well as My creative and intuitive approach to working with subjects.

I agree- feminine orgasm will reveal layers as you listen to it…. if you have read the review for Morning Mantra of Temptation written by submissive m .- he talks about this aspect of My work.

If you think feminine orgasm is Art….then you will be even more convinced of that when you listen to Morning Mantras…. they do not follow the normal formulae of EH mp3s…

I will post this conversation to My web site… I am enjoying your emails outlining your responses.

I have a list of recordings to be made…smiles…
true….I suspect I am the only hypno Domme here in New Zealand.
EH doesn’t seem to have attracted the imagination of many in the bdsm world here in NZ.

oh my…yes Mistress..slave did read those testimonies but this slave, i guess, was surprised by the intensity of the brainwash…and its relentlessness *wipes sweat from his brow*…this slave will forge ahead with his training. the morning mantras will be the next step Mistress. so happy i have some time coming up to explore these more in the next week.

embracing my weakness

slave k

i wonder why this Mistress – it seems to be the ultimate in control and submission – and the fact that it is linked with what you have talked about as your “therapy” background makes this feel so much more interesting and exciting. as far as New Zealand goes i can understand that this has a lot to do with the size of our country – and that is why it is so heartening to hear your voice command this slave

in total weakness

slave k



 going much deeper and a wonderful feeling of pleasure rippling through my body at the end.




one more listen…this slave still can’t let go at the end. this slave so wants to give himself over..this slave’s twitching dancing cock reminds him he is still a boy…must let myself go freer…more later on tonight

weaker now





much weaker now…deliciously weak…Your file is working and the strange logic of it hit me on the last listen. The file is training slave for a cock. “Well of course!” slave can hear You mutter but as the waves of pleasure began to radiate out this slave soon realised what these orgasms are about – slave’s pussy. today slave must shop for a plug.

surrendered slave k


Dear MIstress,

mission accomplished…mmmmmm…so good,,a feminine orgasm

weaker and weaker

slave k