20/6/14Dearest Lady Surrender.I had to write to you after listening to the morning mantra series (**Note- the Morning Mantra series has been withdrawn & is to be re-recorded) for a few weeks now and finally purchasing the 4th session last night.Until last night the effect of hypnosis sessions on me was minimal. A nice buzz when waking at the end, but it soon faded. Occasionally, as in your case, I’d listen to the files a few more times, but generally would move away from them over time.Last night though I was blown away. Before I realised it I’d been listening for 6 hours and only came around in the end because I desperately needed water. I couldn’t clear my head but couldn’t place way and soon drifted off for the rest of the night.I’ve woken this morning after a series of amazing dreams. Dreams where I was trying to juggle my normal, everyday existence with the need to submit. I could sense that people were starting to notice that I wasn’t the same and with every command you sent and with every thought of you I became weaker and weaker. I felt a growing need to serve you without resistance, but also felt weak around any woman wearing stocking or heels and needing to please her in tribute to you, which in turn left me weaker and weaker still.I’ve woken this morning and had to listen to the files again, this time without them being accidentally left on loop.I’ve always tended towards a submissiveness, but beyond purchasing recorded files from various hypnotists have never felt the need to explore further.I now feel the confidence to be able to do that and also to seek out ways of serving and furthering my submissiveness and you can’t believe how much I thank you for that. My need to remain some semblance of control had always been too great that even if I constructed clear, defined fantasies I could not look to live them out but now I now that I am on the road to giving up that control, passing away the keys to my mind and hope to enjoy whatever road you are taking us all on.If it pleased you to develop further plans for me that would be amazing, but it is not something I dare ask you myself. I am enjoying reading the words others have tributed to you and to know the control you have other them is thrilling. I am most enjoying seeing how they lose control and how you are becoming a driving force in their lives, taking them further than they ever hoped.One final thing, I am starting a new job in a few weeks, moving from a male dominated environment back into an office where I have worked before. While I wasn’t too enthralled with this before, as of this morning I am so eager to get there. I know some of the women who work there, who will be in charge of me, how they look and how they dress. I just know that every time I speak with them, stand near them or receive their emails that the thoughts of submitting to women but most importantly you and will continue my path to submission to you at times when I cannot listen to your words directly.I’m looking forward to this evening, so that I can trance for you again.yourshypnotoy/gs
Lady Surrender,I just cannot get over it – how could I have had the experience that I did today (which was most amazing!)? Being an engineer, my behavior is to analyze things – and one of my wife’s issues with me is that I seldom give in to the emotional side, always analytical. Giving in to emotion is scary for me, however I think I am finally learning not to fear it. Things are changing now, thanks to my Goddess!So, since I am still so hyped up and cannot sleep, am doing some research on “men having female orgasms”. Interesting. Found the attached link, very interesting. One of the primary findings is that the female orgasm is 10x stronger than the male orgasm — and some speculate a male could die from a female orgasm! All about Theta waves – which Goddess surely knows much more about than her lowly sissy slut!
My experience today was very intense – maybe perhaps because a female orgasm is so much stronger? Being an engineer, I am “a positive skeptic” about the male biology of being capable to completely reproducing a female orgasm — although that would be pretty cool with vagina contractions! Actually I think my body mimicked those today, although I am skeptical that they were as good as a woman has. Even so, geez it was astounding!Interesting observation — at no time during the session did I get an erection (even though I did take a Viagra beforehand). Even afterwards, tried masturbating with my Hitachi and sissy porno – I simply could not get “interested”!Is this because I was so spent from our session? Or maybe truly the sissy training is starting to take effect? Either way: it is a win – win situation! The neat thing about the programing triggers Goddess bestowed upon me, is the ability to have a female orgasm anywhere, anytime and without porno and lubricants. I pray Goddess does not deem this last sentence vulgar – just facts I wanted to share with my Goddess.I have to tell my Goddess, right now it would be a tough call if I had to decide on one or the other gender orgasm. Clearly, my female orgasms today were great because: they were multiple, and far more intense than all male orgasms I have had. Right now the only things I would miss about the male orgasm is the stroking on my sissy clitty — however I could do the female orgasm while rubbing my sissy clitty.Random thoughts, I hope Godess does not mind me sending these to her. Actually I hope that these give my Goddess marketing/promotional materials – this clitty slave passionately wishes to support the business of my Goddess to the best of my abilities.Tomorrow I will write a report on the session, keeping in mind it is something that Goddess may deem to post.Now, I am truly going to bed. I hope Goddess’s head cold is much better!Your most humble sissy slut,sissy e
A sweet boy had his first Live One on One Erotic Hypnosis session.
After the session, I toyed with him on Twitter… … instructing his subconscious mind to remember to forget….. asking him what he had done that day…. amnesia.
So delicious…. he had no memory of the session.
Restoring his memory… wiping his memory… leaving his mind foggy.
Leaving Me …feeling so turned-on and …. satisfied with such an obedient submissive boy.
you know you ache… long to….. crave…. My exquisite control.
you know what to do….. listen to My silken voice and forget…. remember to forget.
Your deliciously blank state of amnesia…
I have created this recording with a very special desire in My mind…
to have your mind melt into that deliciously blank state of… amnesia…
Brainwashing you… as I blanket your mind with My silence.
When you wake up, feeling so very… very aroused.
I had my first live session with Lady Surrender yesterday, and it was purely delightful.Having followed Her instructions for a few weeks, listening to the Surrender loop, and the Deepening Hypnosis sessions, I was already comfortable with the sound of her voice and her presence in my subconscious, and it helped to make the most of our shared time together.Lady Surrender is a patient, skilled, and insightful hypnotist who enjoys entrancing Her subjects as much as we enjoy it, that was clear in our session, and She understand how to press our buttons with a simple intonation, or an implication of what else will follow once we let go and let Her take control.She truly understands how to use eroticism in Her hypnosis.While, mine was not overtly sexual in theme, it was incredibly intimate and tantalizing, especially as I didn’t have a clear idea of what I wanted, or expected. It was wonderful to spend this time with her and I look forward to the next one even more than I looked forward to our first session.Our hour together is a foggy memory, so you’ll excuse the lack of detail, but it felt good to be hypnotized, to be deeply and profoundly hypnotized by a skilled Woman who knows and understands our shared fetish in every way.I really am looking forward to the next session, and if you’re hesitant about trying a live session with Her, I would say take the plunge and do it. She has a wonderful manner, and her kindness only makes her dominance that much more compelling.– entranced.
Dear Goddess:I am still getting trembles every few minutes from our session which ended about 30 minutes ago. Today marks a “most memorable” day in my life.Exquisite seduction – I not only walked into Your web of seduction and caring control/domination — I ran into Your web as fast as I could. My only regret that I did not do this years ago. You, my Goddess, have changed my life!I admit (maybe you should punish me for this ) whilst I have been listening to your audios with great enthusiasm, I had my doubts on the female orgasm live session in terms of would it really happen, and what the intensity would be. I guess You could say I was a positive skeptic who wanted, in the worst way, for it to be true.TO EVERYONE OUT THERE – IT IS TRUE!!!I will write more about this experience, maybe you will deem it fit to share with others. Right now, however — I am going to bed, I am deliciously exhausted from obeying Your commands!!Your deeply addicted and grateful slave!!slave e
My Phone Session with Lady SurrenderLady Surrender and I had chatted previously, so she knew quite a bit about me, my peculiarities,my fetishes, and what I was seeking.I was excited before we started – not apprehensive exactly, but keyed up, not knowing what to expect. I was feeling floaty, not-quite-all-there, ungrounded, which I recognized as thebeginnings of an altered state (I am an experienced hypnotist myself), even though the call had not began.To tell the truth, I remember almost nothing about the session itself. There is a vague memory of words, a torrent of words, confusing words, from Lady Surrender, which I finally gave up paying attention to. And then almost nothing, for an indeterminate amount of time. There was a mossy staircase leading down to a beautiful garden, and somewhere an elevator taking me down, down, and down. And my “hypnosis room,” deep inside of me, but I was also within it, kneeling beside Lady Surrender, a collar blissfully around my neck. All floaty and vague, like remnants of a dream that you can’t recall. Oh, and a black curtain of forgetfulness, at the very end, as she was bringing me back up, into a blissfully aroused, but “awake” state.Except – I wasn’t really ”awake.” It seemed that way to me, but we would talk a bit and thensuddenly I would be deep in trance, without knowing how that happened. And back up and back down – I don’t know how many times.(I didn’t remember any of this, until Lady Surrender told me to recall it! And how did I know that was real? It made me doubt my own memory. But one thing was certain: Lady Surrender had absolute control over it – and over me.)We talked for what seemed a long time, about books and authors we like, and other things. I felt lucid, but from time to time felt myself deep in hypnotic trance, feeling the collar around my neck, and then back up, collar still there and feeling very good about that.Before we left, Lady Surrender typed a phrase in the chat box, about amnesia and not wanting to remember, enhancing the effects of the session. Reading it, I was immediately back in trance though there was no suggestion to that effect.
Sooo delicious! Thank you, Lady Surrender – I want to do it again.D.P.
Amnesia has always been one of My favourite hypnosis scripts to programme a subject’s mind during a Live One on One Hypnosis Session. Soon- you will be able to experience that blissful state of forgetfulness… when I release My new “Entranced: Amnesia” mp3 next week.
I have always found it to be such a turn-on…. that a subject has placed such trust in Me that they have given up all memory of the time we shared together.
Of course- I do restore the lost memory…. as you will read in the journals below. Toying with memory…. altered state of consciousness….. interrogating the subconscious mind while I have the subject in trance…. mmm… delicious !
Sessions such as:
So yesterday was my first ever live session and I was lucky enough to be in the hands of the Divine Lady Surrender. It was everything I hoped it to be and much more.
I had spoke to Lady Surrender a few times arranging the session and I wasn’t really sure what to expect from the session. The only command from Her in advance was to be dressed dolly. So I made sure to have my nails painted bubble gum pink, my mascara, foundation blush and pink lipstick on, I had on a stripped vest top, my necklace and bracelets, then my black panties and bra, coupled with a pair of pantyhose and a blue pencil skirt and silver strapy heels.
Now a top tip – don’t call Her Villainess, this just brings out Her evil side and my chances of release where gone from that point on. But we started off with a chat, She complimented me on my legs and put me at ease. Then She asked me to lie down as it would help my relax, so I went upstairs and laid down.
And for an hour that’s all I remember. Now we had joked the other day about how foolish subs can be with no memory of things that have happened and the excuses they make, but well i’m now one of them. I woke up and its just like an hour of my life has gone, if I try to think of it, I just go blank and just forget to worry about it and crave Her control more. So this is quite the strange feeling, although its not unpleasant.
But I was soon to find that a lot of hypnosis programming work had been done and implanted in my head. My owner had told me that I was very suggestible and seeing just how under Her spell I am was just amazing.
Now I will admit to being head over heels about this Kiwi Goddess. but waking up – wow, it was even more so, it just feels so right to crave Her control to please Her and I still cannot shake it. And to be honest I have no desire to.
She was most amused I think at how I could not recall being tranced and this lead to more teasing and what I soon discovered was a new – and omg – so powerful trigger. My sexy doll. Even writing it or thinking it even now just drives me mad with lust, I feel a level of arousal and need I cannot put into words. So we had repeated use of the phrase which in that voice of Hers was maddening and the worst thing was I did not know if I wanted it to stop or to continue which makes begging very difficult and of course delighted Her more. I was then dropped again and the urges had gone. However this time I could only smile like a doll I couldn’t talk! I wanted to and tried but I just could only smile big! so imagine when I was told a sexy dolly how this made me feel, I was squirming madly a mix of pain and need, only groaning unable to speak. I couldn’t get any peace till I was dropped again.
This time I awoke and my voice! I could only speak like a dolly which was odd, I knew I wasn’t one but my voice said otherwise. A quick drop into trance later and I was convinced I was a doll. And all I wanted was to be played with and so I was hit with my trigger hard so aroused begging for more and more and more. This was about 5 minutes of mental assault and I loved it, I wanted more! I was a doll and all I wanted was my Owner, my Mistress to play with me over and over.
Some other triggers were the phrase craving control which just is how I feel round Her normally but heightened. I just want to serve … craving commands longing to be Hers. Its delicious as She would say. Then there was blank blank which is like someone turns me off, I just am aware but nothing works I just feel empty.
Now I can’t speak for how Lady Surrender felt the experience but I do know I desired nothing but to please Her, and Her laughter and voice was intoxicating. That said I always felt safe and most of all loved. I never felt my humiliation was excessive or cruel and I am honoured to be Her dolly doll.
The final bit of the session – I came to and was normal but all I wanted to do was kneel. so that’s what I did. it was perfectly natural and I felt so good doing so. A bit more teasing and me trying to be playful and calm but knowing I couldn’t resist thinking I was safe but Mistress had other ideas, as I woke in doll mode which I stayed like till rugby. I couldn’t even ask to cum as suddenly I was overpowered with a feeling of exhaustion crawling back into bed and drifting into a deep sleep for hours! I had very vivid dreams but that’s another story and will be told to Mistress first.
and another journal from another forgetful subject:
I have been interested in hypnosis for many years, but have often been disappointed by what I had been finding. I have always been looking for an experience where I truly go deep and my mind becomes manipulated and controlled by a hypnodomme. I was intrigued by Lady Surrender due to her chats on Inraptured.net to try a one on one Live Session with her. Although the less personal sessions were quite soothing and effective I was still skeptical though due to past disappointments with other dommes.
Then came our one on one Live session. I started out quite nervous barely able to confirm that yes I did want an Orgasm command at the end of the session. Then she asked me to close my eyes, and I did. Then I woke up. I checked it was about forty minutes later, but I could not think of what happened other than whatever it was I was really relaxed. She asked me to remember I could not. This was only the second time an amnesia trigger had worked on me.
I was still a bit shy though until Lady Surrender called out some words, triggers she had implanted. I suddenly felt like a new person where I had no inhibitions whatsoever. I started to say things I would never imagined I’d say to someone I only spoke to previously once. It was an amazing feeling because there was no hesitation in me, whatever the hypnosis did completely worked, and her words made me something else entirely.
Then her words continued, every trigger worked wonders first she made me terribly aroused, then she took the next step, and I orgasmed on her beckon call.
It was incredible, I did not know I could be hypnotized like this but Lady Surrender did it. I belonged to her I was hers. I don’t know if that was a trigger or just a side effect, but it felt like something I never experienced before. Even the conditioning lasted for some time afterwards, and I acted like a different version of myself. When I finally became my shyer self again I have to admit I was a little taken aback. I thought “what did she think of me” for saying what I said. That was the experience I was looking for though, one where I truly became under the control of another, and was changed by them. It was so wonderful I could not believe it.
masscamber – member of inraptured.net
and from submissive m:
This is an account of my 2nd phone call with Lady Surrender. Before I begin I would like to just give a bit of background about myself. i am submissive m and i have been involved with hypnosis for a number of years. More than a decade now. I have listened to a numerous amount of files and have enjoyed them all to varying degrees. I use hypnosis as a way to find out something about myself. How deep can i truly go? I don’t know, and I want to. Every file I listen to, every session I trance to… I try to find an answer to that question.
I started speaking to Lady Surrender a little more than a month ago. It’s been a short span of time but I have greatly enjoyed her work and our conversations. Her mantra files have become sessions I listen to often just because they are so enjoyable. When I was able to I did a phone session with Lady Surrender as soon as I could. mp3 files are very enjoyable… but live calls are really much more intimate and intense. Here is what I remember from my call. Maybe this will interest some of you into trying a call soon as well.
My Skype call started out horribly. Couldn’t get Skype to work. If a Dominant tells you to call her and you are late fumbling with a phone… that could be a bad start. Not for Lady Surrender. We ended up making a small joke about it and she kept going like nothing happened. I was so happy about that. She is so easy to talk to.
After a bit of conversation, we got ready for the hypnosis session. I closed my eyes and laid in bed. Now I am going to say something that may get you thinking “this guy is pretending” … “he’s playing around..” when in fact i am not. At least 35 minutes of this induction I have no memory of it happening. I may be fuzzy on the time. I know I heard Lady Surrender ask me to close my eyes. I’m thinking back to the beginning of the call. I remember coming out of trance. That’s it. No memory. This amazes me. I have listened to hypnosis with amnesia triggers quite often. Inevitably even when told to not remember…. i still remember parts of the trances. With Lady Surrender… I truly do not. It thrilled me that i was speaking with someone who could exhibit this type of control. In recordings it feels sometimes like I am pretending to make the amnesia work. With Lady Surrender … no it isn’t pretending… i love the fact she can to with my mind so easily.
After the induction we talked for a bit more. Then with just a word she drops me right back into trance. Then brings me back up. We talk a bit more. She drops me again, then brings me back up. I have to say every time I get brought back up… i feel… literally feel like i am a toy. I felt powerless. Then aroused. REALLY AROUSED. I was given triggers. I am not sure when they were given. I didn’t need to think about that. My brain heard the words and my body just reacted. No thinking on my part at all. I was too wrapped up in Her words to apply logic to this. One set of triggers aroused me and made me dizzy with desire for my Lady. Another set of triggers has me orgasming while calling out her name. I am not even going to type the triggers out because Lady surrender has already proven her triggers work on me even in text… oh my word i love Her control.
Except… sometimes i need to beg Her for mercy.
Imagine orgasm after orgasm after orgasm until you feel drained… and then pushed past… She teased me. Over. And Over. And Over Again. Multiple orgasms. Enough that i felt drained in the process. I sincerely begged her to stop and she did… bringing me under and then back up. I cannot think of a recording that i was able to feel this type of interactivity. Something this intense… i believe it can really only happen on a live call. The arousal I had came from the fact that my mind was so thoroughly controlled… so erotically controlled… it left me a puddle afterwards. Nothing left.
I remember we talked a bit more after she calmed me down. Somewhere in the conversation she teased that she was going to use a trigger. She didn’t say one… she just teased it was coming… and then there was this pause. This long pause that lasted for eons. My mind was working overtime trying to figure out what she was going to say. My body was starting to react like she had already said a trigger because I was triggering myself in my mind going through all the triggers i know could come. Lady surrender actually had to bring me out of trance again. Either because i triggered myself, or she triggered me and had me forget…
She can control me by just teasing a trigger word. Wow… i may be in trouble, lol.
I think it was around here where I was given a trigger to begin speaking like a baby. An actual baby, yes. Have to admit, I found it so freeing. Strange thing was I could still think as myself, but every word came out as gibberish gaga bobo ojhowjo2uey and other non words. No matter what I thought, it came out as baby speak until she triggered me out of it. Then she slipped the trigger right into a conversation and immediately i begin speaking baby even as my mind was trying to finish our conversation. haha. After a bit i admit i felt rather babyish inside and out… and it felt wonderful. When you are able to be this free with someone you trust… so many doors are opened. It felt that way to me.
Here is where things get a bit tricky for me, please bear with me.
After a bit more conversation, I was brought under again, and then told to forget the entire conversation. I remember at the time I was brought back up and Lady Surrender was still speaking to me. She was addressing me and asking if I remember anything about the last hour? I told her I remember when I called her on Skype. Here is where it gets fuzzy. In my mind, I was trying to figure out how could I be missing an hour of our talk. I know i had been forgetful of late, but it couldn’t have been that bad. Then I remember how tired I was and thought perhaps I slept the entire trance and just work up. Any thoughts I had about the conversation… felt like trying to hold on to water. The thoughts were too slippery. I didn’t even remember I was talking like a baby just moments ago. Another way to describe this is like someone putting on the wrong prescription glasses. With the right prescription glasses, everything in front of you is vivid and clear. With the wrong prescription everything is fuzzy, you can just make out shapes of things. That’s how it felt. When I thought about the conversation it was just nothing but shapes.. haziness… I wasn’t sure what happened during our conversation at all.
I was again brought back into trance and then told that I would now remember our conversation and even recall forgetting things at her whim. Although… i still cannot remember the first part of the call. I remember most things after. Including arousal triggers still working very very well. lol. I know there are others things I have forgotten, but I love the fact that Lady Surrender is able to play with my mind to this degree.
I accuse myself a lot for having high expectations as to what erotic hypnosis can do. Time and again my expectations were never truly met. They were kind of.. if I pretended until it felt real. Maybe that’s how everyone starts learning how to trance. Pretending it works until it does. with Lady Surrender, there is no pretending… her control just works. She somehow in just a few conversations found out what really excited me about erotic hypnosis… what made me tick as a submissive… and then blew all of my expectations away. Completely. I feel like I have been in training trancing these past 10+ years just so I can truly enjoy how special an experience with Lady Surrender is.
I urge anyone who is interested in erotic hypnosis in it’s purest form, to try a mp3 or a live call with Lady Surrender. She will take the time to understand who you are… then use all of that info to leave you a quivering mess at her feet. Just as it should be.
your submissive m
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Review of Lady Surrender’s “Surrender : Mindless” mp3
Mindless” begins with the psycho-philosophical assertion that mind and thoughts are distinct from Self, with the implication that it is possible for my Self to be rendered mindless and without thought. And this is exactly what this intense session brings to pass: midway through and continuing, my frontal lobes feeling turned to cotton, I am experiencing myself minus mind and without thought, simply being amidst a rushing flow of trigger phrases and suggestions being eagerly welcomed into my wide-open unconscious.
I am hearing several voices at a time, coming from different directions, both whispered and full-voiced, a confusing and disorienting mix. When I try to focus on one, the others flow in unattended, subliminally. But there is no trying here, really, no doing – only absorbing or, perhaps, being absorbed into my being, my unguarded self.
Although there are no direct suggestions for physical arousal here or pleasure (none that I can recall, that is), as I slowly return to consciousness afterward I become aware of unmistakable signs that my body has indeed been experiencing arousal.
I am finding it hard to write this review, because just thinking about this session I start to feel woozy and not quite all here.
“Mindless” is a masterpiece! – the most profound hypnotic experience I have ever had (and I do not say that lightly – I am very experienced, both as a hypnotist and a subject).
The following email was received from a subject who has been deeply conditioned by My “Deepening Hypnosis” mp3. This conditioning file has been used by a Master as the basis for mind fucking the subject – turning the subject into a cam slut.
Craving to experience what sam does? My “Deepening Hypnosis” mp3 takes you deep into trance…. enabling your mind to be programmed to become My play toy. Check out My training programmes on the menu bar…. time to Surrender because Surrender is inevitable.
Hello Mistress, I hope you are well.
I’ve been without an erotic hypnosis experience now for a while. Ive been working abroad and haven’t had a lot of spare time and on one of my typical purge cycles.
I was masturbating yesterday and had the strongest urge to eat my cum. And I remembered how good it felt to be a good cum eating sissy…. so i listened to your cum eating files and I ate my cum like a good cum eating sissy…
For a while last year as I told you in a journal I was listening to your files a lot and out of my desperation to submit I had found a few people online who enjoyed watching me eat my cum and instructing me while I was willing and suggestible.
One master in particular really used your triggers to hypnotize me. I loved listening to deepening hypnosis and then letting him control me.. to the extent of buying toys to fuck my aching arse..
It was incredible.
But now I feel confused. From the start my interest in hypnosis has always been the thought of being controlled… and I know I am still hetero sexual.. and even though now some aspects of sissy hypno really turn me on im not into cross dressing or feminization I still get these really strong cock sucking urges when im horny.. or wanting to be fucked.. or to be a good cum eating sissy..
If I think about how I was hypnotized and controlled by a man to fuck myself with a dildo and eat my cum I instantly feel submissive and want it… but then im not sure i want a man doing that to me.
Im not sure what I want from hypnosis now but I know I want it.
I’ve gone from having a fetish when I first contacted you to eating my cum and then being a sex toy on skype.
Im not really sure what my point here is exactly but it always makes me feel good telling you how I feel after listening to your files…
- sam, your cam slut.
My cam slut,
Hypnosis is so seductive…as you have discovered. How fucking delicious- that you were transformed by the power of My hypnosis – from a “normal” hypno slut….. to a cam slut.
your description of fucking yourself with a dildo & eating your cum, is a sexual fantasy ( & a great turn-on !). Fantasy derives its power from being a secret… something that we imagine & that (often) others don’t know about us…. something we might/might not act out in a hidden part of your life. you have discovered that your fantasies are even more HOT when you have acted them out in the past.
Sexual fantasies don’t define your sexuality… you can identify as a straight man- & also have a fantasy about being controlled & dominated by a man.
That does NOT mean you are gay…. your fantasy simply means you have a fetish for cum eating (thanks to My hypnosis) , a fetish for anal play …and you are turned on by the experience of being controlled.
There is nothing to be ashamed of or to make judgements about. I know you have cycles of binge/purge… Time to accept yourself for the cam slut that you are… and go find yourself another Master. Enjoy those delicious feelings of arousal & submission.
See sam’s earlier journals:
The following journal is written by bridgette, a subject who was Enticed to listen to My Delete Hetero-Install Sissy Sex mp3.
Entrancement followed…. as I rewired “his” socialization as a “male”.
mmm… now My new found sissy slut is listening to 3 of My files a day….
Shall I call that “Enticement Phase”…. or perhaps the subject has moved straight into “Entrapment” phase.
Unfortunately, the subject seems to be having a little… trouble… with a newly bought chastity device.
dear, dear, dear…. much more- devious- to have My Orgasm Control : Ruined Orgasm mp3 hypnosis embedded…deep into your subconscious mind. What a delicious way to control you… no matter where you live…. My hypnosis controls your orgasm… your cock… your clitty.
I like erotic hypnosis. I like the submissive side of things. I wanted my mind controlled and altered. EMCSA has been a very long time go to of mine. From the beginning my kink was with a sub hetero role to a dominant female. They can’t claim they aren’t getting what they want when they’re in control. I especially like the subversion and indirect influence stories. So for years I experimented with hypno doms, paying for some mp3s, cheating access to others. The mind truly is the most important sex organ. I’ve had the recurring thought that it’d be relatively nice to understand what the homosexual side feels and thinks. I wasn’t remotely attracted to Men and thought that Bi-sexuals were having quite the visual feast being attracted to both.
So along comes Mistress Surrender with a file called Delete Hetero-Install Sissy Sex. Hit me like a truck. It’d be one thing if I was always a deluded hetero and was always this flavor of homosexual. It might be the cummulative effect of all the other hypno sessions waiting for that one spark. Or if Mistress Surrender has that one terribly effective method that worked as though I’d been struck by a fork of lightning while standing next to a power transformer.
The selling point was a script that attempted to tackle the concept of gender socialisation. Silly me, its working.
At the minimum, my reflex revulsion to gay erotica is muted. Not even really there. Then I got into the rest of the sissification files and I really was blown away. Just the concept of being a gay sissy slut was kind of hot due to the treat of arousal from a new source. Add in now the tabboo of wearing the costume of the other gender and acting in the submissive role. Hot buttons being added on top of my prior ones, genius!
After a little more help from some PornHub sissy hypno files I found a new non erotic love of pictures of the women I’d lusted for. Goals! Points of immitation and the tactics of simple beauty issues I’d always poo poo’d as frivolity. Makeup isn’t just spackling the wall and throwing on rainbows and sunbursts. This is some real strategy and skill work! I may have been a bit harsh with thinking waiting a half hour for someone to ‘get ready’ was too much. In the extraordinarily unlikely event I was put on television, I wasn’t sure I could deal with makeup. Now I’m pretty sure I’d hog the beauticians time with questions like what my color is. How to experiment with makeup without busting my bank at Sephora. What my eye brow shape should be. None of the ladies I’d oggled before had wire bristle brows. Though they were pretty enough that it might have worked for a short bit until one thought to stare at more than their chest.
If this little adventure goes nowhere due to waking up, chickening out or something like that, it’ll still be worth it. The challenged assumptions and new observation goals at the least will keep me occupied. Observation and memory are like muscles, I’m told. One must flex them to grow them. Now that I’m noticing facial shape, shading or glow. Looking to the hair line or ears to discern just how morphing the effects of makeup can be. Its been like waking up and realizing, I’d been walking around with dulled senses. The ladies have been beautiful. But I’d never appreciated the effort.
But of course, someone called off at one of the worst possible times. Its tough being the White Knight sometimes. But if one isn’t leading by example, they’re just not leading.
Got news of the shooter in Orlando. Very sorry for the loss of so many. Little sad to say that it isn’t affecting me like I’ve heard from so many others. The interview with Lindsey Horvath leads me to conclude that such a thing can form. At least emotionally, it isn’t my community. Americans being attacked on our own soil, EXTREME DISPLEASURE!!! The fact its the LGBT community isn’t hitting me yet. Do homosexual people automatically take up a communal feeling about their identity? It doesn’t seem like it would. More that it would grow with contact and investment. But mine is brand new and I’m coming from a position of life long circumspection about any group. If not also the possiblity that its a mere installation until I’ve lived with it long enough.
The thought of making a sissy-gasm happen is quite distracting. So I’ve decided to go about making it happen. I found Sub-Shop.com having a sale. *Smiles* Its a sign from the gods it is! Or their way of clearing inventory. Can’t be sure at this point. Either way, I’m taking advantage. A few toys and a little lingerie to experiment with. Nothing too perverse. 😛
I was browsing beginer makeup pages when a Pepsi commercial came on. The ladies drenched the guy with the cooler water and ice like He was the coach at a huge game. Then He took off his shirt and I felt my breath catch. This is new. That was actually pleasant.
Reading up more on Makeup. Love you WikiPedia. I may have to do a full curtsy in apology to the ladies I’d ignored due to makeup. As a group, you’ve had to put up with some real BS. Can’t argue with the results when done right though.
Giving some real thought to waxing as I can’t stand the idea of shaving again every other day. What to do about that Congolese rainforest I call my back…
I’m busy trying to work through a game when the urge takes me. I want to study the various body waxing kits and techniques. Ok, so here comes the pain train. I can do it right and have lots of pain, JOY! The site I read said 3/5 pain scale on the best of the kits. Or I can do it wrong and have lots of pain. Ingrown hairs, incomplete pulls and skin irritation. All those red bubbling pits of joy. I can’t wait! New word and concept of the day, Exfoliation. Scrubbing the skin and getting the dead stuff off. Gotcha. Apparently a mandatory in the after care of waxed areas. I got a big jar of Vaseline for the makeup I’ll wish to remove so as not to assault those I’m close to that just wouldn’t understand. Now I need to get a bottle of baby oil for the skin care. Between the clothing, personal upkeep and hygeine issues. Its a miracle the Ladies I’ve known had any time or money for movies, hiking or dinner. Never mind saving for the nigh inevitable ‘uh-oh’.
Well hey there caution! Meet wind! Just went on a bit of a shopping spree to get some of those beauty products I just don’t have the balls (hehe) to go into the store and procure face to face. Sure the costume party or I’m picking them up for my girlfriend story might hold, but I don’t trust myself to sell it. Hard waxing kit for the jungle, bras, panties, mascara and lipstick to start off with. I got nail strengthener and base coat for the baby step of ‘doing my nails’ without going to work or showing my family the pretty red shade I’m toying with. Not sure Mistress Surrender would like to market Herself with this, but I may finally have found a way to quit biting my nails. I’m pretty sure its a new thought, but I can’t help but think you ladies have been holding out on me. <.< We’ll see if I still feel that way when I’m halfway done with the waxing.
Got the measuring tape, not the cloth tape but the tool box metal measuring tape. Its what I have! I’m 45 just under the bust and 47 on the outter edge. Two sites offering bra fitting tools said there was no such size. This is going to make bra fitting, problematic. Then I had a friend that worked at Payless Shoes for a time and was telling me that ladies sizes are Men’s sizes plus two. Meaning I’m a size 12 ladies shoe. Really glad I have a mind for collecting meaningless trivia as asking the former employee about that now would never happen. The thought of going into Payless and trying on high heels is a bit nerve fraying. I’m hoping the more I think on it, the more brave I’ll get.
I do so despise needles and am hoping my fascination will wane before the whole dare to go public thing comes up. Hormones being the only thing likely to deal with my very manly muscle mass. Not likely considering that I’m averaging three Misstress Surrender sissy hypno mp3s a day. She’s just that good at putting me on slow boil thinking about the control She’s exhibiting and the cock I can service, while under Her control! The issue will be friends and family (and me) that are very religiously conservative. I’m on the dark side! All of a sudden, having a conservative lifestyle where I don’t pry and neither do they is a bonus! There’s my hypocrisy. We’ll see which lasts.
Just got my box of goodies from Sub-Shop! I should have known, but now I have proof. Lingerie is fragile. The one bit was too small and I ended up Hulking out of it. The garter belt though is a bit of a thrill. The stockings in the next shipment ought to be a blast to pair with it.
The cock cage with urethral tube. Maybe I’m too excited, excite easily or I just don’t go flacid enough while pushing and prodding. The small holes on the side are too small to assist in packing the meat into the tube. Made all the more uncomfortable by the steel urethra tube. I tried some water based lube and got exactly as far as I had before, in a tenth of the time. But by then I was developing some chafing issues on the edges. I’ll have to wait until I get my hands on some hosiery to butcher and try the nylon insertion method. Which will be all the more a feat due to the urethra tube I can’t get to unscrew.
The only bits to work as advertised with zero trouble were the 6.5 inch rubber dong with suction cup, and the ball gag. The ball gag was fortunate as the last notch on the fastening belt was where it actually fit without cutting into the side of my mouth. I can deep throat the dong without much trouble at all. Can’t wait to take it for a ride in the shower.
PSA: Keep your toys clean! Your health is most important and you deny yourself all that fun if you get yourself sick or ruin your goodies. Thankfully I’ve been in a position to choose phthalate free rubber and Silicon toys. Water and light anti-bacterial soap for the win!
Darkly Addictive hypnosis…
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Custom memory implanting…. straight to gay rewiring…. Brainwashing…behaviour modification….. thought re-programming…. rewiring your sexual attraction….
Back in 2013, I began a long-term brainwashing and memory manipulation of a subject that took place over approximately 14 months. The subject was a straight male Dom who asked to be hypnotised to serve a gay Master. The subject also asked to be hypnotised to believe he was always gay. This would involve implanting memories so that the subject always believed he was gay.
Some of My long-standing twitter followers & readers of My web site, may recall the journals written by the subject. Unfortunately- I had to delete the posts at the subject’s request.
When I induced trance with the subject, I was able to interrogate the subject’s subconscious mind and ascertain what the “secret” desires and “fantasies” were. From a hypnotherapist’s point of view – what I am looking to do when a subject is deep in trance, is discover the drivers and desires that arise there in the subconscious mind…. then use those subconscious desires and drives to “anchor” the hypnosis.
I programmed implanted memories so subject believed he was always gay. In order for the subject to accept the implanted memories, the subject was interviewed about his teenage years… extensive details were collected, in order for the implanted memories to be entwined with the real memories. Then- at his Master’s request- I programmed implanted memories so the subject believed he had been used/dommed in certain ways. This programming & brainwashing took place over a year with extended hypnosis sessions of 1 and 3/4 hours 2-3 week.
When I took the subject into deep hypnotic trance I talked with the subconscious mind to check what hypnosis triggers had been accepted, and what hypnosis triggers needed to be stronger. When I repeated a hypnosis trigger that was a very intense trigger for the subject- he would moan… even though deep in trance. Sometimes- this subject I am referring to- would moan so loudly that I had to talk louder to be heard over the moaning. It was clear that he found humiliation & being used to be very erotic… so erotic that on occasion- he would orgasm while deep in trance.
Fascinating process…. this is such an individual process for each subject that I work with.
In My opinion- this level of hypnosis is way more skilled and demanding than HFO which is often seen by subjects as being the ultimate hypnosis experience.
I have now worked with a number of Doms and submissives who begged Me to rewire their thoughts, their behaviour, their feelings… to hypnotise them to be gay. … who begged to have their memory manipulated, twisted…. to believe they were always gay…. always attracted to men.
The following email is from one of My subjects who experienced My powerful transformation hypnosis :
I never knew you could do that to my mind.
As a Dom, I have looked at many forms of developmental transformations, and delighted in directing submissives as they change in looks which often drives changes in the inner self. I don’t have any knowledge of hypnosis nor have I seen hypnosis used in its extreme brainwashing form to transform a sub.
I began to acknowledge I desired those experiences, and once I began to think about that – the fascination as to what I could become has grown stronger and more extreme.
But still these scenarios remained a fetish fueled desire.
When I first made contact with you, My lady, I saw a glimmer of what was the impetus, the force that would propel me across the line into a new realm.
Last night, I had the first of the sessions and I feel my rewiring has been redirected at a very deep level and that it is just the beginning of a major transformation in my life. It does feel like choices are being reduced as craving takes over.
I want humiliation and degradation.
you so-called straight guys- who have secret thoughts of being gay- you’re in luck! General release series of mp3s coming soon – same hypnosis & brainwashing that several of My subjects experienced.
Warning : this is not fantasy. This is real hypnosis- based on My experience as a therapist & Lifestyle Domme. Expect brainwashing that results in bringing to the surface, your secret cravings to be gay – forcing you to live as a gay man.
you think My work of implanting memories and rewiring a straight Dom to serve a gay Master is sexy?
It’s a tremendous turn-on for Me….
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